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Sunday, October 31, 2004
NZ...
had the fun fair thingy earlier in the day.. YAN LIN!!!! tat girl arh.. haiyo.. go near me, then but her hands over my head. at first i thought was going to be water, then like nth happen.. she hor, actually put flour on my head lor!!! say i wols or wadeva u like lar.. lol. wadeva..haha. it was fun lar that day.. everyone so feng feng dian dian..haha..water fight also..cos our class was doing that.. hai.. but hor, besides the fun fair, had to settle the NZ thingy.. was supposed to be the emcee for their welcoming ceremony. i seriously think that i'm too short..lol. i stand behind the rostrum mar..then the pple one the floor say they can only see my head. i think xiao hua said: if u moved left and right, ppl will think is ghost standing there, cos can only see the head. haha.. met the NZ pple at the airport..met ed first as well..cos he wanted to see my cute buddy!! lol. she's really so cute lor.. small small one..hehe. went over to jawi's house for dinner that day..steam boat..then, we went to TM. met joyce there as well. then hor, we all took neoprints.. walked and walked, then go home...
EMCEE DAY!!!
the emceeing thing was ok i think.. at least the thngs went smoothly.. aft that, took them on a tour on the sch, had refreshments and them off to Sentosa!! stopped at esplanade on the way..say the merlion.. sat the cable car, to Mount Faber, back to Harbourfront and then Sentosa.. walked a lot lor..haha.went to places like underwater world..( i so wanna work there now..hai..) dolphin lagoon as well.. one of the NZ ppl got to touch them.. and even had a kiss frm the dolphin.. so cool!! AHH!! i wan... :'( lol. i love the musical fountain so much... ahh.. jang!! muz pei me go see it again, u promise one hor..lol!!!( u might not be reading this though) anyway, that kiki monkey laugh is totally horrendous... reached home late that day.. so tiring lor..
WILD WILD WET
jaga the things for the pple today.. haha then ng shan shan gave me the card thingy (funkey) which they used to purchase the tix.. now so many pts lor..can go redeem things.. heh. the rides and stuff were quite little lar.. not really very interesting i think.. quite average.. practically spent the whole day there lor.. went bowling as well. bowled wif pyro and andy.. not bad wor the both of them..lol.. 95, 83, 83. so late then reached home again.. saturday.. nth much today.. went to discovery centre and town to walk walk..and walk even more.. lol. then go grandma's house to have dinner. played wif my cousins.. they go sports sch today.. bye bye le.. thinking of sending then off one wed though.. see first ba.. cos their flight really late..
sec 4s having their first written papers tmr.. JIA YOU ALL!!! all out now.. last leg le..haha. all the best ed, yanz... lol..only u two read my blog i think..so ya.. :) God Bless!! love ya..
EMCEE DAY!!!
the emceeing thing was ok i think.. at least the thngs went smoothly.. aft that, took them on a tour on the sch, had refreshments and them off to Sentosa!! stopped at esplanade on the way..say the merlion.. sat the cable car, to Mount Faber, back to Harbourfront and then Sentosa.. walked a lot lor..haha.went to places like underwater world..( i so wanna work there now..hai..) dolphin lagoon as well.. one of the NZ ppl got to touch them.. and even had a kiss frm the dolphin.. so cool!! AHH!! i wan... :'( lol. i love the musical fountain so much... ahh.. jang!! muz pei me go see it again, u promise one hor..lol!!!( u might not be reading this though) anyway, that kiki monkey laugh is totally horrendous... reached home late that day.. so tiring lor..
WILD WILD WET
jaga the things for the pple today.. haha then ng shan shan gave me the card thingy (funkey) which they used to purchase the tix.. now so many pts lor..can go redeem things.. heh. the rides and stuff were quite little lar.. not really very interesting i think.. quite average.. practically spent the whole day there lor.. went bowling as well. bowled wif pyro and andy.. not bad wor the both of them..lol.. 95, 83, 83. so late then reached home again.. saturday.. nth much today.. went to discovery centre and town to walk walk..and walk even more.. lol. then go grandma's house to have dinner. played wif my cousins.. they go sports sch today.. bye bye le.. thinking of sending then off one wed though.. see first ba.. cos their flight really late..
sec 4s having their first written papers tmr.. JIA YOU ALL!!! all out now.. last leg le..haha. all the best ed, yanz... lol..only u two read my blog i think..so ya.. :) God Bless!! love ya..
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
???
sorry uncle..i know u wanted a happy entry but, i'm really sorry.. can't blog that at this moment... been thinking a lot.. and i mean, really a LOT...result: sleepless nights and poor apetite.. lol.. feeling so worn out..confused..dry.. well, that's wat i've been feeling for the past whole week.. juz figured it out recently.. slow rite..heh.
analysis done by someone: low self-confidence.. i'm like, condemning myself lor..
dun wanna be like that, but i can't find the One i'm searching for.. it's like playing hide-and-seek, in a really really BIG foreign land.. how to guard? someone pls teach me.. i feel like i'm walking thru a maze, all alone... i turn left, there's no one..i turn right, there's a shadow.. seems like a person, but so far away and out of reach...as i run after that person, the further the person gets.. turning round and round, trying to find a way out, or at least a person to ask for directions.. but, i end up hitting walls, feeling so hurt and wanting to cry so badly.. i wan a shoulder to cry on, to let everything out.. a fren to juz let me cry and say nth, nth at all.. bottling everything, i know it's not good.. sumtimes i wanna shout and juz become a water tap.. it's not wad i should be i know...struggling, trying so hard to get out of this maze. Father, pls lead me out.. :'(
analysis done by someone: low self-confidence.. i'm like, condemning myself lor..
dun wanna be like that, but i can't find the One i'm searching for.. it's like playing hide-and-seek, in a really really BIG foreign land.. how to guard? someone pls teach me.. i feel like i'm walking thru a maze, all alone... i turn left, there's no one..i turn right, there's a shadow.. seems like a person, but so far away and out of reach...as i run after that person, the further the person gets.. turning round and round, trying to find a way out, or at least a person to ask for directions.. but, i end up hitting walls, feeling so hurt and wanting to cry so badly.. i wan a shoulder to cry on, to let everything out.. a fren to juz let me cry and say nth, nth at all.. bottling everything, i know it's not good.. sumtimes i wanna shout and juz become a water tap.. it's not wad i should be i know...struggling, trying so hard to get out of this maze. Father, pls lead me out.. :'(
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
depression..OUT!!!!
it's sinking in again.. Father, help me.. i dun wan it at all.. thoughts are running about in my mind rite now.. can anyone give me a hug? a real one i mean..heh. hai.. but not frm "u" though.. i juz duno why. i'm angry again for no reason..maybe one person knows why though.. wadeva. i'm really taking a long time to get over it.. pls give me some time...will you?
i sincerely apologise for all the times that i've hurt you, all the awful things that i've said.. and my actions.. i don't want to hurt you at all.. teach me how.. you may not be reading this but, juz bloggin it down..
c__ sorry for letting u down.. i know i'm taking a long time... and i feel it's too long.
sumtimes, i feel that it's all a lie...
i sincerely apologise for all the times that i've hurt you, all the awful things that i've said.. and my actions.. i don't want to hurt you at all.. teach me how.. you may not be reading this but, juz bloggin it down..
c__ sorry for letting u down.. i know i'm taking a long time... and i feel it's too long.
sumtimes, i feel that it's all a lie...
Saturday, October 16, 2004
touched by an angel
wad are the things in ur life that u really treasure? was juz watching "touched by an angel" juz now.. God has indeed many ways to portray His love for us, often with us not knowing and taking it for granted. the habit of man?
learn to treasure every little thing, even a single smile of a friend. It is not a coincidence, for everything has been planned by God. every step is a test for you and me, whether we choose to take it with faith.
quote of the day: " In times like these, when a storm comes up quickly and you need a lamppost to cling to, you don't want to waste your time deciding which lamppost it's going to be. This is no time to put your faith in luck or fate, only God."
learn to treasure every little thing, even a single smile of a friend. It is not a coincidence, for everything has been planned by God. every step is a test for you and me, whether we choose to take it with faith.
quote of the day: " In times like these, when a storm comes up quickly and you need a lamppost to cling to, you don't want to waste your time deciding which lamppost it's going to be. This is no time to put your faith in luck or fate, only God."
Friday, October 15, 2004
feelings..
Which feels worse?
To be forgotten or
To forget someone
Unintentionally?
Or issit better to
Not know someone
That well....
Not so painful?
Is that true?
Many a times my heart wans to bare,
But you shut the door, to my despair.
Do you know that you hold the key,
to my innermost thoughts and feelings?
Depressing it may be at times, i admit i do feel it too... it's juz unexplainable. eccentric and fascinating actually, to let oneself feel it even though unwillingness sets in. Sometimes, calling but saying nothing, the words juz won't spill.. Juz sitting in darkness, especially at night, tears juz flow. Holding on to things of the world that don't last... that i have to learn not to. The things that no one can express nor explain, God can. Indeed there are times that it comes in surprise, not allowing us to comprehend why. Void:__________ ?
"nvm":don't u ever mind?__or : don't ever mind__or simply: nothing
"Nothing" can mean sumthing, but it can also mean juz plainly________ nothing.
So wad do u think i mean when i say: "nth" or "nvm"?
go figure it out.... : )
To be forgotten or
To forget someone
Unintentionally?
Or issit better to
Not know someone
That well....
Not so painful?
Is that true?
Many a times my heart wans to bare,
But you shut the door, to my despair.
Do you know that you hold the key,
to my innermost thoughts and feelings?
Depressing it may be at times, i admit i do feel it too... it's juz unexplainable. eccentric and fascinating actually, to let oneself feel it even though unwillingness sets in. Sometimes, calling but saying nothing, the words juz won't spill.. Juz sitting in darkness, especially at night, tears juz flow. Holding on to things of the world that don't last... that i have to learn not to. The things that no one can express nor explain, God can. Indeed there are times that it comes in surprise, not allowing us to comprehend why. Void:__________ ?
"nvm":don't u ever mind?__or : don't ever mind__or simply: nothing
"Nothing" can mean sumthing, but it can also mean juz plainly________ nothing.
So wad do u think i mean when i say: "nth" or "nvm"?
go figure it out.... : )
It's over...
exams are finally done and out.. well, so am i.. pooped, totally.. all the papers were quite alrite i guess.. so tired now.. juz wanna sleep, but still gotta go to the dentist... my bio clock's all haywire man.. hai.. gotta get on!! hmm.. need to pack my room soon.. loads of stuff comin up, now that i realised.. so many things that i wanna do though..--- movies, play!! hopefully..soon.. well, gotta go change and tighten braces alreadi.. wad colour....? hmmm...
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Going to le..
One more day... juz ONE more day... AHHHH!!!.. going balistic soon.. argh.. chinese!!! so many cheng yu and so many ci yu..changed my blog a bit. added a few stuff here and then.. hmm.. gonna be a short entry.. need to hit the books once more..hai.. Lord!! Strengthen me!! Father, i juz lay on Your promises..
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
2 mur dayz..
phew..only 2 more dayz!! HAHAHA!! my brain's almost dead le.. all the eenie meenie cells burned out.. lolz..well, the next big barrier the i WILL OVERCOME: CHINESE!!! MuAhahah.. keke.. a big hurdle man.. my basic alreadi so horrible.. xp well, i can do it!! yea.. sorry.. boosting my confidence here..heh. well, God's with me.. and He'll strenghten me!! :) Thank God for always being there.. hmmm.. pray that i'll be able to do well.. make up for my mids. hmm.. uncle juz added me as a link today.. ed: i really think u should put ur face on the guitar player.. like that very weird. heh. put ur face, more comical.. :p juz a short entry here uncle..
glad that i've become an overcomer. feelin so renewed, esp in the spirit.
glad that i've become an overcomer. feelin so renewed, esp in the spirit.
Friday, October 08, 2004
geesh..
hai..can finally blog again after soooo long.. and i really mean long. cranky com i got here.. sighh.. having exams now. juz had math paper for today.. i really thank God for His blessing and protection. Could feel His presence always, comforting and calming. i was like so panicky and worried cos it's math.. Good thing that God gave me a sound mind and strength to study and w/o slp until 3 plus 4? Thanks Father!! :) hmmm..2 papers down, 5 more to go.. yikes..lolz. can't wait for it to be over.. means my NZ buddy's comin!! haha..juz can't wait.. well, means i gotta pack my room too..
why are things starting all over again..?
why are things starting all over again..?