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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

[wad's wrong? i know that u put in effort to cook dinner.. i din eat cos i din have time.. u think i wasnt hungry? i was having gastrics summore! i'd love to have dinner.. but i had to rush for tuition! why did u have to give me that face until now.. sigh. =( i appreciate wad you're doing.. really.. sigh. when i asked, u dun tell me wad's wrong.. wad do u want me to do? i've already explained that it's not that i dun want, but i cant.. i even set the table for u..] dun u see the redundancy.. sigh. it's not like i'm emotionless to know.. in fact, i'm too emotional. =(

went to sch in the morn for math and bio lessons. not so bad..

finally got a reply via friendster from sabrina..

had tuition at night, as mentioned above..

sry to je for the 3 missed calls.

bahh.

i shall go swim tmr morn/afternoon.. for a long time. let there be no rain.. pls. actually, beach or pool?? hmm.. sigh. anyhow, alone.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

STOP.

just simply stop. all you busy people out there, just STOP. (it's gonna be a long post..)

sumtimes, things just aint bout u.. the things that u do whatsoever.. just stop, take a look ard. look at the things ard you.. the people.. the details of whatever that may seem so insignificant.. make it significant. look at how things have changed.. in this fast-track world, we tend to overlook so many, too many things. you are missing out on a great deal of things.. i'm glad that i can just stop and let the world pass me by for awhile. blessed. =) [i'm just commenting here..]

went to school early in the morn! haha. yes, it's the hols no doubt.. did math for 3 hrs plus straight.. my brain died. haha.. it was rather fun! lol.. den went for amath tutorial/remedial.. whichever. followed by chem.. wow. it's like my brain has been reduced to a pulp! AHH! oh the drama! haha.. anyway, went home and changed, packed my stuff n went to swim at SAFRA! woots! feels so good!!! haha.. it's been like ages.. met up with Yanz! we had dinner and watched Over The Hedge! saw Spastic, Kelly, Boon, Jizhen, Shiyu, Huiyi and Joyce before that.. they were walking n shopping ard.. oh! we saw shiyun and her fren as well.. in the theatre.. lol. wad a small world.

sent yanz to the traffic light and walked back home. got coffee on the way.. as i walked home, i was amazed. =) the sky was just a plain beauty. the stars were so bright and captivating.. simply gorgeous. the moon was cresent and the thing is that, you could actually see the shadow over it! it's just like black/dark paper cut and pasted over the moon. the difference was so distinct.. it seemed like a fairytale.. stars everwhere i turn.. stars of different brightness filled the sky.. dotting the blackness with light.. just beautiful. there's this one which was just shining so brightly.. i think i looked super weird, walking on the street and kept looking up and ard.. haha.. but, it's all so worth it.. in fact, i wish that i could just lie down on the open field and just admire the wonder.. it was SO tempting. but it's weird to lie there alone.. lol.

just STOP. take a look ard and take in wad God has offered.

Yanz made my day, the stars n night sky made my day.. God MADE my day.. =) Thank You.

Monday, May 29, 2006

[toxicated world. i wanna debate on the society.. it's getting controversial.. prolly will make it controversial. haha.. viewing things differently, is that wrong?]

packed some stuff today.. had tuition at night.. i gotta buck up! argh.

finally got hold of ms tay! AHH! why is the school so.. *argh*. wadever... lol. cant be bothered to get my blood pressure raised cos of them.. haha.. we'll see how things go tmr. better get things sorted out. otherwise, us going back would in the end be redundant. HAHA. i know.. it's not easy to plan for so many classes and subjects and teachers.. but, it CAN be done! just plan in advance so that there's time to work things out.. it's not impossible.. sigh. the irony eh? lol. the adults always say that we cant/dont manage our time properly.. but see.. who's what in the end.. lol.

anyway, i NEED to stop procrastinating.. no more excuses.

Over the Hedge with yanz!! hahaha.. =D

Sunday, May 28, 2006

oh man.. din know she reads my blog.. =S

just had a "talk" with my family..

i shall return to washing the toilet.. with my left hand. lol. oh, the right was hurting like mad before and thru service man.. so torturous.. =S anyhow, also pain.. argh. ask me n i'll explain.. lol. thanks to je for praying for me and bernice for helping me massage.. =)

the message was great.. simply. hit the nail.

start acting.. come on.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

i'm so in love with aaron! aaron rite? ya.. haha.. he's so cute!

had bs in the morn, cell in the afternoon and TPS' anniversary dinner in the night. phew! watched a little of Poiseidon (however you spell it) after cell.. oh, the pizza was great too! haha..

the production for the dinner was awesome! come on! they are like only 12 yr olds.. and they are great! oh man.. haha.. way to go ms lim! great job =) chatted with mr tan boon seng.. it's been so long.. 5 yrs? ard there.. caught up with ms lim and ms kuek too.. ms tan of cos made the list. it's just nice.. so sweet.. i would say that my life in TPS was la dolce vita! i miss those days.. 6 yrs.. that's the longest time anyone would spend in an institute (for majority). huggie wuggie! hahaha! *memories* there's just so much.. joy, laughter, jokes, cries.. everything! there's life.. =)

the hols' super packed. but, i still want to go to the beach. (and i WILL.) supposed to go for physio every wk.. we'll see how my and her sched permits..

i need to call ms tay! must rmb.. bleah. lol.

having seriously bad c/n now.. bah. i'm tired. *squint*

school was as usual.. meaning, like the past few days.. went for physio in the afternoon.. i was like super duper early in meeting Jos.. haha.. was at tanah merah station at 2pm? ard there.. supposed to meet her at bedok at 3.. lol. thanks Jos fr accompanying me! bah! haha.. i think she was super bored man.. dun like hospital summore.. so must really thank her for accompanying me there! =) -muacks- got molested man.. she cabbed down summore.. wahh.. i feel kinda bad now.

din sumthing different today.. there was the heat therapy.. then the steps machine thingy.. Michael took over today as Hengyee was on urgent leave.. yep. *pain pain go away..*

went over to suntec. had dinner at subway.. thanks to bro simon for the blessing! =) went up to church office after that as Jos n bro simon practised praise n worship. the office's super duper cold! wahh.. haha.. i was like totally shivering.. *brrr*

saw loads of stars tonite! it's so beautiful! totally made my already "made" day! haha.. it's simply lovely.. it's just so rare in the city.. God never fails to amaze me.. =) it is indeed that starting the day on the right note can simply make a great difference. Praise God!

Thursday, May 25, 2006

ecstatic! haha.. the ice cream was a sold out for RnE today! can u imagine! haha.. we brought in new stocks and we were sold out! WOOTS! great job people =) it's really great to see the togetherness in the peeps admist the quarrels and shoutings.. haha. it's amazing.. simply amazing. no one can imagine the chaos behind everything.. lol. but, this bunch is truely exceptional.. cute, funny and unique in every way possible.. love them to bits! btw, we started with 11 tubs of ice cream! can u imagine.. it's like the size of those u see outside.. ard there.. which is A LOT of ice cream! haha.. scooped till my hand nearly rotted.. lol. still sore now.. =S haha.. i'm gonna miss them so much.. though the time spent wasnt that long.. but it was great. =) pray that they continue to do wad they do best and be great leaders =) do RnE proud peepx! jia you!! [imagine yam ice cream + coke/root beer.. some say it's actually nicer than vanilla ice cream combi]

like the past few days, hardly any lessons at all.. 4B, C, J had the "No apologies" talk.. quite alrite i guess.. just that it was like 4hrs? haha.. yes. very long.. anyways, went for chinese lesson after that.. was piled with a great load.. lol. wad do you expect? lol. went to do duty after school.. ice cream stall. after the mean feat, hung ard and chatted with kelly, hui yin, evelyn, melissa and cheryl.. we were super spastic.. =x haha.. esp that cheryl. stop looking! haha.. pervert! it was like pouring at that time.. lightning.. thunder.. everything. bleah. haha.. went to tamp area with cheryl. that girl arh.. ran bare footed, now feet pain.. lol. walked down the slope with her and to tamp interchange. i think i looked super dumb. i couldnt decide if i wanted to walk home or take a bus. in the end, i was like walking to and fro.. =S haha.. so silly. eventually took the bus.. oh, saw Sab again.. walked past her actually.. but i dun think she saw. she working so din wan to disturb her. some time in the future perhaps..

i'm sleepy now.. duno why though. o.O but after awhile, i'll be super awake.. passing the 2hr phase soon i guess.. =S oh, no tuition tonite as lili watching football finals.. but it was like pouring?? duno where they play.. maybe, i should just go sleep.

long or short hair??

[ytd] had to have my dinner downstairs as i was eating beef. my dad dun allow beef in the house.. o.O went to the park to eat then.. watched ppl play soccer and ate. realised that roo kiat was like playing basketball.. joined him there.. i miss basketball.. when can i really play it once again? i dun wish for my love for it to be lost again.. not again..

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

see.. i knew it'd turn out like that.

i'm kinda like hating n loving.. =S just wish that if she really wanna meet, make sure she's free in the first place.. so many times of being stood up.. =( but, it's alrite.. i'm used to it le.. blah.. dun think bout it..

school was slack as usual.. =x the school's just so weird.. the dialogue session was kinda awkward too.. i think dr.boon seriously misunderstood jia jie's intentions.. sigh.. den she replied very rudely.. =S i seriously think the Heads gotta work on their ppl skills as well.. as in, SERIOUSLY. haha.. i sound so sarcastic again.. =x oh no.. i mean, for adults, if they wanna get along and have the respect of the student, you gotta try and think like we do at times rite? wrong? duno.. it's like, people always say.. if you want respect, respect the other person too.. so, who's supposed to respect who first? lol. i dun think that this is an issue of being and adult or child.. that an adult deserves respect first. i think quite otherwise actually.. not sure why though. it's just that, respect due to? yes. but beyond that? do the younger have their respect due to as well? haha.. sumtimes, people are simply so weird. it's like the chicken and the egg.. i remember hearing that MM Lee said(in China), " it's obviously the ____(cant rmb) that came first." how does he know?? haha.. the complexity of this world has taken a toll! [nonsense.]

speaking of complexity.. CCP showed the video on the Chiangmai/rai trip today! i totally miss the kids!! AHH! those people there.. especially the kids.. their simplicity have brought them joy. they may not have everything they want, but they have wad they need to live and are contented with it. the children.. innocent, pure and simple love and joy they have. even though some may have AIDS, face danger of death if sick or bitten by the centipedes as they are tucked away in the hills, the true joy can be seen on their faces =) i miss them loads.. *a wave of nostalgia* i believe i've blogged bout them before.. i think. (STM) the video really brought back memories.. =)

simple is nice.

i gotta do planning and STICK to the plans! bah.. lol.

taken =)

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

taken =)

ooh! haha.. i'm like super high now.. there's a gd and bad side of that.. in fact, there seems to be a pattern! =S blah.. haha.. nonsense. realised that i keep using this word recently. alritey! after all these emotional swings and blahs.. it's time to compress all these nonsense, and start hard core mugging! i really hope that i can do this.. *sigh*

yesterday was super.. had record-breaking(time) conversation with Nies.. busy woman's finally freer.. for this week at least.. =p haha.. miss her loads man.. haven seen her in a long while. oh! she needs to teach me how to answer qns too! oh man.. you know how irritating it can get when you understand the text or wadever.. but, dun know how to answer the qns. i've never quite got wad the teachers are looking for in the answer.. hmm. mayb cos i dun understand the questions? most prolly.. talking bout qns, i nearly cried during tuition.. my tears were on the verge of just rolling down.. i feel so dumb man. always complicating matters.. Lord, please help me... ='(

i got my sleep this afternoon! barely actually... i was like half awake that kind, aware of things going on ard me anyway.. blah. deprivation of sleep makes me very irritable.. =x argh. procrastinating.. not a gd thing.. i dislike procrastinators.. and yet i'm procrastinating.. (>.<) eeks! where's my discipline? =( these rhetorical questions are getting to me.. n i've come up with a whole new vocab! haha.. =x

ooh.. my bro's listening to christian songs =) hehe.. that's great man. i hope i can be a better sister..

hooked.

i should get started/complete my chinese journal on the other blog... its like forever. =x

i woke up at some unearthly hr again! this time even earlier! argh.. went to bed ard 11plus to 12 i think.. and i woke at 2am!!! good thing i could get back to slp.. super tired man. not again.. bah. school was slack.. wad does it mean by lessons as usual?? haha.. nonsense. anyway, it's not like the students werent in class.. where are the teachers?! haha.. the irony of life.. haha. i hope that they would come up with the holiday timetable SOON! otherwise it'd be a hassle to be unable to plan.. o.O

having tuition tonite..

to-do list(by tmr) :
-write chinese compo
-get bio pract file done
-get some decent slp
-bio sec 3 exam paper
-chem paper

nothing else i hope.. STM. =x

Monday, May 22, 2006

clueless.. [Superwoman]

wad was i doing up at 3am?!?! just awoke. just awoke. attempted to slp at 12 plus? ard there i think.. had a super hard time getting to sleep.. and den i woke at 3! wad in the world?! wad did i do anyway? just wake up? cant remember already.. prayed? think so.. o.O

i forgot that i had oral today.. den yesterday.. wow. my voice was like almost gone.. lol. i even zao sia.. it was super embarrassing! my teacher was like ms sng.. she's like a teacher whose face is always/nearly always black.. but she smiled! heard that she's getting married, maybe that's why.. anyways, the conversation she only asked my one question.. some had 2 or 3.. wow. so wad does that mean? i think i did ok.. *hopeful* sumhow, the questions that the teachers ask are like always striking me. i mean, when i first hear the questions, i'll be like, "why are u asking me this? it's like personal.." that would always be my first thought.. today's question was sumthing like, keeping sumthing from someone.. cant really remember already.. den last year was also like sum sensitive thing.. i feel. *secrets*

the whole day was practically slacked away.. the timetable's like super screwed! argh.. what are they doing man.. irritating. on some days, there are some programmes that pop up.. although there's supposedly like no post exams.. in that sense.. sumhow, progs still come up.. den there's no fixed timing whatsoever. i dislike disorganized organization.. why call it an organization anyway.. lol. no link rite? haha.. nonsense. they initially said, "lessons will be as usual". haha.. oxymorons.

Plans:
-watch sumthing. (Over The Hedge! + Da Vinci code?)
-study like crazy.
-do wad i've been wanting to do for a long time.

walking.. treading.. oh, it's so fine.
wad's it gonna be like? How would i know?! it hasnt happened yet! unless i dream bout it. -.-"

i dun like busy ppl.. =(

Sunday, May 21, 2006

BLAH

"ENOUGH!! DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND?! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! JUST GET OVER IT WILL YOU?! IT'S BEEN SUCH A LONG TIME ALREADY! COME ON, GET A MOVE ON! WAD A USELESS WEAKLING!"

i desperately need:

-breakthroughs
-earplugs
-discipline
-time...

nonsense. get in front of me, not behind me! backstabber.. get in front so i can fight you!

service was exceptional. went for prayer meeting after service as well =) it's my first time actually.. o.O i need to focus.. i get distracted too easily.. =( so, wad's what and wad's not??

defensive. all taped and sealed.

Saturday, May 20, 2006

STM

just a short entry here.. dun mind the randomness of my mind.. oh, earlier just now, bout 2 plus in the morn i think.. i nearly killed myself.. lol. it was an accident.. thank goodness the penknife wasnt coming down fast, otherwise i'd have the knife in my throat.. =p i seriously have extremely short term memory, well.. maybe it as cos i was tired as well.. anyway, i left the penknife on the cutting mat, which was above me. i was sitting on the floor.. i forgot and just pulled the mat down.. the penknife just came flying down.. it could have turned out to be a really freak accident man! oh, minus the time where i nearly cut my own finger as well.. haha.. harzard to myself! =X

i'm glad i completed the thing.. phew. oh, i hope i dun get lost on my way to cell as well.. haha.. =X and i'm not blind! haha.. thanks to Jos for accompanying me also.. even though she ended up sleeping later than me..

i find seniors amusing.. 2 ppl in particular.. haha. they should know who they are. anyways, they are just amusing.. even though i still not sure wad the other word means. come to think of it, the math formula a bit weird.. lol. o.O den again, maybe not.. haha.

oh! i nearly forgot.. i din get marked down by the school for shooting them! haha.. in fact, aced it =) hehe.. mrs ganesan marked that paper.. and she agrees with my points! woots! haha.. just glad that she's open-minded. =)

hope they'll like it..

Friday, May 19, 2006

Kiss Goodbye..

no school today cos of the poling day holiday..

got a msg frm "mummy", say she's working in tampines area again.. there's a citibank here meh? how come i duno.. i know that there's the office cos my aunt works there, but it's not like front office that kind. anyway, maybe it just popped up? haha.. not sure. should i pop by or should i not? hope that IF i pop by, it wont be like the other times.. =S

spent the whole day at home basically... changed my blogskin.. i just realised that my link on zheng lao shi's blog is wrong, even though i changed it alreadi.. hmm.. wad's going on? decided not to cook dinner tonite.. just din felt like doing so. spent the whole afternoon and most prolly tonite as well doing the project =) hehe.. hope i can finish it in time! otherwise i'll be so sad.. haha. not really lar.. just hope i can finish it in time! *secret secret* hehe..

i want to go the beach. the sunset, the stars and moon and den the sunrise... =)

changes

just changed the template..

oh, cos my font of my previous entries are like black, those that i'm not changed will be "invisible".. so just highlight it and it'd be readable. =)

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

time.

this' another evidence of time captured! haha.. time really's flying by i guess.. the day breaks earlier even.. wow. time's really amazing.. in many ways. it's hard to explain.

left school during 2nd recess to go for the strength test. at outram, thought and planned to take the shuttle since i din know how to walk to the building itself.. but in the end, i walked there.. it's not very far actually.. though it seems so on the map. a very BIG place yes, but it's still walkable. oh, there was this really nice guy.. he flagged down a cab to go to the hospital. normally, one would think that he'd just take the cab himself rite? WRONG. lol.. he was really nice.. he actually asked to see if anyone wanted a lift up to the blocks. it's rare man.. 3 older ladies took the offer..

was slightly early for my appointment as i din take the shuttle. my therapist asked me to warm up on this cycle thingy.. just that it's for the arms. did that for 10 mins.. looked long, but felt fast. the test i did was "biomex" i think.. sumthing like that.. it's a super weird machine.. haha. i really gotta thank my therapist and those who helped fix up the thing. it was tiring for them i think.. cos hardly anyone uses the machine i guess.. then there was quite a fair bit of figuring out to do.. lol. i had to do 3 different positions of exercise on both arms.. so it was like shifting around 6 times.. ya. it's not easy.. cos i'm short. den my therapist was laughing at me lar! told me that she did some research, asked me to drink more milk to grow taller.. cos i'm short, den the machine sorta like maximum le.. haha. wad in the world.. A LOT of shifting had to be done basically.. lol. thank them for their patience.. and they are really funny ppl too.. lol. michael, hengyee.. haha.. i laughed quite a lot man.. haha! den they say wanna use my ic no. to buy 4D.. -.-" it's like the no. 9000. such a combination is definitely rare.. lol. we'll see.. haha.. well, they certainly made my day =) nxt appt will be on nxt friday..

oh, i saw mr soon there as well.. he's like so thin.. =( i still remember that he retired before i graduated frm TPS. he's changed.. din talk to him, cos he was doing his therapy... din want to disturb. i just feel really..

those nonsense feelings, GET OUT! bah..

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

let's go fishing!

oh the randomness.. lol.

got back bio, emath paper 2, chem paper 1, geog, chinese paper 1, eng paper 2 that's bout it for today i guess.. managed to maintain an A1 for bio, emath was a just pass.. thank God for chem paper 1! without that, i'd have failed my chem. thank God for my geog paper 1 as well.. pulled by paper 2 up by quite a bit. din fail geog 2, but it wasnt very well done. passed chinese as well.. not that bad.. i was actually afraid that i'd fail.. o.O i'm GLAD bout my english! haha.. it's really kinda unexpected. i find it odd though, all the teachers mention that the passage was tough, but i thought otherwise (slightly). there was that one question that stumbled me TOTALLY.. haha.. vocab too! argh! i used to rely on vocab for marks.. but now, it's become my downfall.. i need to read more books! hoping that my paper 1 for eng wont pull me down! it better not anyway.. otherwise my paper 2 would be wasted! anyways, i guess these results, expect for both my math are rather alrite.. cos, as i mentioned earlier, i din memorise anything.. just read and sorta flipped through to refresh my memory. =x

all these really mean nothing at all..

i'm not in a very good mood now.. feeling all topsy-turvy.. ARGH.

feel so cheated. ms tay wanted me to do chem lab today.. supposedly. den.. hai. forget it. went to popular with pui yee! i really miss this girl.. though see her in school sumtimes, but hardly like really talk to her le.. it's more of those hi and byes along the corridors.. anyway, we talked bout dreams. WEIRD ones! HAHAHA.. i was telling her bout the oh so recent and ridiculous dream that i had yesterday.. i dreamt bout, supposedly AHS.. though it looked extremely different.. much better than now of cos. anyway, once again, aili appeared in my dream.. pui yee and lee cheng too! odd! and guess wad.. we were playing netball. it's like totally no link can. i mean, all 3 of them are netballers, but it's odd with all of them appearing at the same time. lol. we were walking along the sheltered walkway to the busstop. then, i suddenly looked at my watch, for no particular reason. den i told pui yee that at this time, we would/may most prolly see aili on the bus. after boarding the bus, i just turned around and just looked at this person that i just passed. lo and behold! that was true enough. haha.. it's was weird lar. she was wearing shades.. on the bus! it was like?? haha.. den pui yee din realise at first actually.. lol. i think she was prolly wondering why i suddenly stopped and looked at the person at the seat. HAHA. okies.. it's not that funny. but we were like laughing almost uncontrollably.. silent laughter okies..

thanks pui yee for pei-ing me! =) went to popular to get some stuff.. embarking on a project that i thought of before the exams.. finally! haha =)

had tuition just now.. i think i'm like stoned. oh no.. i just.. my mind was a blank.. wad in the world.. oh the night..

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Mummy's Day

Happy mothers' day to all the mothers out there!

cried in church. sometimes, i just want to cry until there's no tears left. anyways, not the point. Thanks Jos =)

i'm planning to do sumthing.. thought of it before the exams.. shall put that plan into action now =)

went to bugis for fellowship after cell.. a couple of us only though. went home after cell to cook dinner for my family. it was just sumthing simple. glad they all liked it. dad even said the cooking was better than my mum's =x haha.. anyways, just glad they all liked it. well, cooked chinese fare the other time (rather cantonese actually), so ended up cooking western.. did the sauce, marinating myself. managed to get my brother to help me with the noodles. yep. that's done.

i owe people explanations.

happy mummy's day to my "mummy" too.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

it's not bout how perfect.. it's bout how imperfect.

as usual, due to the horrible internet connection, will be posting new pics on friendster instead.. tis is really getting on my nerves.. =D hopefully it will be a more pleasant attempt... haha. or maybe, i should just try once more.. nope, it aint working.. friendster it shall be den.. lol.

could u spare me 5s? i think that it'd be unlikely rite.. can i buy your time den?

nonsense.

i like long bus rides.

i love photography.

i love the randomness.

=)

Thursday, May 11, 2006

ignorance is a bliss

[i can't.. i must not..]

mummy's day is coming.. but i'm still a sitting duck.

enough of letting the tap run.. wasting water! it doesnt change anything as well rite.. yep.

=D

我想。。。

我很想放弃。。有谁能叫我如何是好？我知道自己不开放弃不过，我觉得很累。虽然想起来，我觉得时间是非常的短暂但是，我是觉得如此的累了。

今天拿回了科学试卷二和数学的试卷。这两个试卷都不及格。科学那方面，我有些心理准备了。。不过，在数学方面，就刚好相反。我本以为至少会及格，但是结果还是。。在回家的路途，巴士上，碰上了aili。我看到她的时候，就觉得很想哭。也不知为什么。。就觉得很想哭。为什么总是不能做好它？回顾一下往日，自从中三，我的成绩一日不如一日。觉得自己好像无法坚持下去。。。

it's just a sudden urge to blog in chinese... i love studying.. i really do. but, i just cant seem to find my heart or myself in it anymore.. it's become a chore.. in a sense. where's my love for it? where has it gone? i'm tired. i really am. i wanna cry right now... ='( it's not the marks.. it's not that. i'm not even sure to put it in words...

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

illustration..

this' to show u wad i mean by the previous post..

it was actually really totally bare.. but now, it's shooting! haha.. looks furry in this pic. that's the amazing thing bout nature and wad pics can do =) awesome.

went for TJC's chinese drama production yesterday.. it was hilarious! most parts.. i loved shi yun's drama best! not bcos she's my cgm.. but cos it's the truth! =D had a great night.. went home with jia yun.. haven seen her for a long time! i mean, she's become darker.. =X haha..

those were the days..

tmr's emath paper 1 and chem 1. den, until next monday... geog 1. den... MYE's over! haha.. but that also means that O's coming le. wow. extremely fast. i wonder if people feel that time passes extremely fast? i'm saying on the whole. it seems to be a fact that time is really flying by! just like that! wow.

Friday, May 05, 2006

a new beginning =)

[the tree is bare once again. but i know, it's only just the beginning.. a whole new beginning]

random thought; a reason why i love photography: it captures time. the only thing that captures time so beautifully. =) was looking thru pics of me n my bro when we were young.. there's sumthing absolutely different. well, maybe not absolutely.. but different. no, i'm not talking bout the appearance.. it's sumthing else.

well, most of the major papers or should i say major part of the papers are down. woots! haha. now, i'm left with geog n chem paper 1 and both papers of emath.. it's been a trying week.. thank all those well wishers and encouragements.. esp frm mun keat, jos.. thanks! =) it is indeed that the joy of the Lord is my strength. everyday, the proclaimation has indeed made a great difference. no matter what happens or doesnt, it's a gift. that's why it's called "the present". quite true. =) lol. pardon the randomness.. this' wad u get when you've been deprived of decent slp. hahaha..

geog paper was rather decent i guess.. though i must admit that i'm guilty of last min studying.. (after hearing that i may be forced to drop a subject) when i say last min, it really means last min. word wise. almost everything was just the day before. so i guess that i could say that i've in a way really tested how much i actually know.. just like i planned and wanted. i mean, if not now to test, when? haha. by the time O's come, it's too late. anyway, reality check. it IS near. o.O hmm.. chem on the other hand wasnt quite as good. even someone who studied found it difficult. ??

can anyone accompany me to the beach? i miss it.. i miss the night sky.. i miss the stars, the sand, the waters, the wind.. i wanna see the sunrise n sunset. *dreaming* LOL.

oh, speaking bout dreams, the extremely short dream i had in the wee hours of this morn.. it's kinda ridiculous.. hahah. and not to mention, extremely weird. first, i dreamt bout being in school. having exams and all, the paper about to start. den, i'm not sure for wad reason, a few of us including me, ran out of the class to take our lit text. all of a sudden, the teacher pops her head out and says sumthing bout FSH! hahahaha! it made totally no sense at all! FSH: follicle stimulating hormone and lit?! HAHA! wad a joke. come to think of it, it was pure nonsense. haha.. well, i had bio and lit papers the day before. LOL. the next dream, cant rmb if they were linked, i dreamt bout jang, nies, aili, christine. that's all the people i think. anyway, i duno for wad reason, but they were all running. running past my window. -.-" it was extremely weird. at first i tot i was seeing things.. den i realised that just outside my window was the ground. (i live on the 6th flr u see) den they stopped at my window and jang gave me a hug? n she was perspiring? haha.. nonsense rite? hahaha.. anyways, after that... my alarm rang.

dreams are weird to me. sumtimes i seem to be living in the future. cos realistic dreams that i have do come true. very often. in fact, it confuses me sumtimes.. i'd find myself seeing the same scene happen, like, "this has happened before!" den, i'd think if i dreamt it, or if i thought it up, or if it actually happened. so, for me, recalling things can be very confusing. cos i'm very often not sure wad's real and wad's not. O.o

Monday, May 01, 2006

mug, cup, plate...

[take it away.. take it all away.. pls.]

went for tuition in the afternoon. oh the groggyness.. (flu medicine)

where has it disappeared to? my discipline, determination and decision. (D.D.D)

off again..

wad a bad connection i have.. tsk.

so many things to focus on.. that actually, focusing on none? lol. "Jack of all trades, master of none" has anyone actually thought?