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Thursday, August 31, 2006
well well well.. lets start with wednesday?? lol.
WED: AHS BROKE A GUINNESS WORLD RECORD! haha.. wad a proclamation.. lol.. it was actually quite an easy feat.. we broke the record for the largest wheel-barrow race which was previously set this june (13th) by some school in the UK.. so sad for them.. set the record for awhile only.. but seriously, it was super easy to break this record.. lol. who knows, some school may just break it soon.. lol. cycled to SAFRA, since i cycled to the tamp vista there.. went to swim, again.. lol. it was cool.. cycled home and relaxed a bit.. then, the thunderstorm started, continuing until today! went for physio and met liu ying there.. what a small world! haha.. btw, I'M DISCHARGED FROM PHYSIO! PTL! haha.. so happy =) den, today he told me that my mcl(ligament) got minor prob lar.. sensitive.. so no one should press it, unless u want me to suffer.. i repeat, NO ONE. haha.. yea.. if it's torn, he'd feel a gap in my joint.. so yea.. thank God that it's not torn =) it'd take about 6 weeks to heal.. or more actually.. since i'm always up and about.. =X den rite, exertion activities better to wear knee guard. that's bout it.. yep =) shoulder's way better! hehe.. =D
THURS: paper ones today.. not too gd i'd say.. but nevertheless =) went back to TPS after that.. chatted from 2 plus until 6 plus going to 7pm! woah! haha.. it was cool =) heard some sad news and stuff.. u can never predict what people lives would turn out to be like.. it's sad i'd say.
what kind of life are you living?
what kind of life do you want to live?
WED: AHS BROKE A GUINNESS WORLD RECORD! haha.. wad a proclamation.. lol.. it was actually quite an easy feat.. we broke the record for the largest wheel-barrow race which was previously set this june (13th) by some school in the UK.. so sad for them.. set the record for awhile only.. but seriously, it was super easy to break this record.. lol. who knows, some school may just break it soon.. lol. cycled to SAFRA, since i cycled to the tamp vista there.. went to swim, again.. lol. it was cool.. cycled home and relaxed a bit.. then, the thunderstorm started, continuing until today! went for physio and met liu ying there.. what a small world! haha.. btw, I'M DISCHARGED FROM PHYSIO! PTL! haha.. so happy =) den, today he told me that my mcl(ligament) got minor prob lar.. sensitive.. so no one should press it, unless u want me to suffer.. i repeat, NO ONE. haha.. yea.. if it's torn, he'd feel a gap in my joint.. so yea.. thank God that it's not torn =) it'd take about 6 weeks to heal.. or more actually.. since i'm always up and about.. =X den rite, exertion activities better to wear knee guard. that's bout it.. yep =) shoulder's way better! hehe.. =D
THURS: paper ones today.. not too gd i'd say.. but nevertheless =) went back to TPS after that.. chatted from 2 plus until 6 plus going to 7pm! woah! haha.. it was cool =) heard some sad news and stuff.. u can never predict what people lives would turn out to be like.. it's sad i'd say.
what kind of life are you living?
what kind of life do you want to live?
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
swim swim day =) there was this fire drill at SAFRA.. so everyone had to participate in it.. =S the thing is, there's like only so few people there.. so yin ling and i had to get out of the pool.. lol. but it was ok.. they were quite fast bout it. i think i've gotten a lil darker? haha..
lets see.. i shall cycle to tamp vista tmr for the record thingy.. den? not sure what time it ends.. if time permits, i may swim again.. lol. otherwise, study a bit before going for physio at 3.45pm. so nice of jen to volunteer to accompany me.. k.. i'm very weird.. i want ppl to accompany me, but i'm afraid that whoever will get bored.. haha. gd thing it's nearby.. if it were at SGH, maybe.. o wells.. (i'm gonna start building wells too.. =p lame inside joke.. lol.)
it's a wonderful day =)
icecream.icecream.icecream.icecream.icecream.icecream.
true enough.. all my "nicknames" are given by my beloved cgms.. hai.. HAHAHA... today, Jang gave me, "Yoda".. it was initially, "Yo Da!" as in a greeting. duno wad made her join them together, forming yet another nickname for me.. besides her ultra long one that she has for me.. which she apparently started calling me by it again.. after some ten thousand yrs.. LOL. well, no matter how many "names" to come, I LOVE YOU ALL! =D
the joy of God is truely the ultimate.
lets see.. i shall cycle to tamp vista tmr for the record thingy.. den? not sure what time it ends.. if time permits, i may swim again.. lol. otherwise, study a bit before going for physio at 3.45pm. so nice of jen to volunteer to accompany me.. k.. i'm very weird.. i want ppl to accompany me, but i'm afraid that whoever will get bored.. haha. gd thing it's nearby.. if it were at SGH, maybe.. o wells.. (i'm gonna start building wells too.. =p lame inside joke.. lol.)
it's a wonderful day =)
icecream.icecream.icecream.icecream.icecream.icecream.
true enough.. all my "nicknames" are given by my beloved cgms.. hai.. HAHAHA... today, Jang gave me, "Yoda".. it was initially, "Yo Da!" as in a greeting. duno wad made her join them together, forming yet another nickname for me.. besides her ultra long one that she has for me.. which she apparently started calling me by it again.. after some ten thousand yrs.. LOL. well, no matter how many "names" to come, I LOVE YOU ALL! =D
the joy of God is truely the ultimate.
Monday, August 28, 2006
yea.. it feels terrible when you try to cheer someone up, and the person says, "haiya, why u worry bout me! dun need.." in that kind of frustrated tone.. sometimes, it's best to shut up. i admit, i was sadden by the reaction. i should have known my place better.. there's a line that one just cant cross.. o wells.. sumthings that one cant change..
so blessed and inspired by this particular woman. her entries never fail to get me thinking =) used one of her points in my previous and quite recent compo test. thankful for having the opportunity to come across her blog.
i want to tell the ppl i love, that i love them, everyday. i duno how true it is, but i have this thinking that, when u truely appreciate someone and show it when they are around.. and when they are gone, it aint so hard to say goodbye. once again the thought, "what if i'm gone tmr?". more importantly, "what if that person goes tmr?" and the "gone" and "goes" here mean death of cos.. no.. not getting suicidal or anything.. it's just, "what if?" honestly, there's just too much what if's in one's life.. if i could, i would want to tell the ppl i love that i love them, everyday. =)
this week's kinda odd actually.."timetable" including my plans as well.
Tuesday: no school. go beach for awhile? but seems weird sitting there alone.. lol. most prolly going to swim(in the morn). study.
Wednesday: guiness record breaking thing at tamp vista in the morn. no school. physio in the afternoon..anyone wants to accompany me?? study. (swim?)
Thursday: prelim paper 1s for both languages.. (swim?) study.
Friday: no sch. teachers' day... study. (swim)
well, that's the basic outline.. lol. well, dun suppose i'll go to the beach alone.. so odd. not quite but yea.. lol. wad am i saying?! nvm.. LOL. hmm.. gotten used to swimming alone.. doesnt matter bout that.. haha.. oh man, i'm pretty sure rite now that i saw bro poh at SAFRA on friday.. lol. so awkward.. lol. i look at him wondering if he was.. den he looked at me.. he must have been thinking, "why is this person looking at me like that?" hahaha... talking bout friday, fellowship was great =) kent, gerald, aileen, sheila, edwin and junwen.. fun =)
i love E237.
so blessed and inspired by this particular woman. her entries never fail to get me thinking =) used one of her points in my previous and quite recent compo test. thankful for having the opportunity to come across her blog.
i want to tell the ppl i love, that i love them, everyday. i duno how true it is, but i have this thinking that, when u truely appreciate someone and show it when they are around.. and when they are gone, it aint so hard to say goodbye. once again the thought, "what if i'm gone tmr?". more importantly, "what if that person goes tmr?" and the "gone" and "goes" here mean death of cos.. no.. not getting suicidal or anything.. it's just, "what if?" honestly, there's just too much what if's in one's life.. if i could, i would want to tell the ppl i love that i love them, everyday. =)
this week's kinda odd actually.."timetable" including my plans as well.
Tuesday: no school. go beach for awhile? but seems weird sitting there alone.. lol. most prolly going to swim(in the morn). study.
Wednesday: guiness record breaking thing at tamp vista in the morn. no school. physio in the afternoon..anyone wants to accompany me?? study. (swim?)
Thursday: prelim paper 1s for both languages.. (swim?) study.
Friday: no sch. teachers' day... study. (swim)
well, that's the basic outline.. lol. well, dun suppose i'll go to the beach alone.. so odd. not quite but yea.. lol. wad am i saying?! nvm.. LOL. hmm.. gotten used to swimming alone.. doesnt matter bout that.. haha.. oh man, i'm pretty sure rite now that i saw bro poh at SAFRA on friday.. lol. so awkward.. lol. i look at him wondering if he was.. den he looked at me.. he must have been thinking, "why is this person looking at me like that?" hahaha... talking bout friday, fellowship was great =) kent, gerald, aileen, sheila, edwin and junwen.. fun =)
i love E237.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
it's just a way of release. can i?
service was great =) bible study was great =) kinda links? well, i suppose that almost everything has a link, one way or another...
once again, i find myself kinda caught in the middle.. and no doubt, i'm resisting?? not sure if that's the rite word.. doesnt feel like it.. but nevertheless.. just that feeling. convicted and den again, confused..? a lil. sumtimes, well most of the time actually, there's just no black and white.. just grey. i'm sure whoever is reading this agrees. you may catch no ball reading this.. cos neither do i actually.. not totally that is.
saw mummy today =) so glad to see her after some time.. just had a four sentence (approx.) chat with her on msn the night before.. i miss her.. i realised that i haven been really talking to her.. sharing.. like we used to do so.. more of me toking actually.. the thing is, it aint even talking.. it's basically just email, which i have to wait like ages for a reply.. lol. yea.. it was long. haha. to the point whereby, i'd get upset with her. but, that was the past. she's so busy and everything.. n, i kinda duno what to share with her anymore.. my fault.. i got this, "i'd-better-not-bother-her-with-this-insignificant-whatever" mentality.. but serious, people are humans.. most people are extremely busy.. get tired.. so yea. *indifferent* cant control that.. we try of cos.. but sumtimes, some people aint gonna wait for u.. lol. i would though.. sounds foolish?? i dun think so.. so when i say anytime, i do mean it.
lack of sleep's getting to me i guess.. lol. so, pardon me if i suddenly "change face".. and den change back again upon realization.. LOL. that's what happens to people that are deprived of sleep.. =p well, time is of the essesence. did i spell it correctly?? lol. =S hmm.. did i mention that i'm happy with my prelim oral results? lol. well, i am =) and that miracle math test.. hahaha!! awesome =)
service was great =) bible study was great =) kinda links? well, i suppose that almost everything has a link, one way or another...
once again, i find myself kinda caught in the middle.. and no doubt, i'm resisting?? not sure if that's the rite word.. doesnt feel like it.. but nevertheless.. just that feeling. convicted and den again, confused..? a lil. sumtimes, well most of the time actually, there's just no black and white.. just grey. i'm sure whoever is reading this agrees. you may catch no ball reading this.. cos neither do i actually.. not totally that is.
saw mummy today =) so glad to see her after some time.. just had a four sentence (approx.) chat with her on msn the night before.. i miss her.. i realised that i haven been really talking to her.. sharing.. like we used to do so.. more of me toking actually.. the thing is, it aint even talking.. it's basically just email, which i have to wait like ages for a reply.. lol. yea.. it was long. haha. to the point whereby, i'd get upset with her. but, that was the past. she's so busy and everything.. n, i kinda duno what to share with her anymore.. my fault.. i got this, "i'd-better-not-bother-her-with-this-insignificant-whatever" mentality.. but serious, people are humans.. most people are extremely busy.. get tired.. so yea. *indifferent* cant control that.. we try of cos.. but sumtimes, some people aint gonna wait for u.. lol. i would though.. sounds foolish?? i dun think so.. so when i say anytime, i do mean it.
lack of sleep's getting to me i guess.. lol. so, pardon me if i suddenly "change face".. and den change back again upon realization.. LOL. that's what happens to people that are deprived of sleep.. =p well, time is of the essesence. did i spell it correctly?? lol. =S hmm.. did i mention that i'm happy with my prelim oral results? lol. well, i am =) and that miracle math test.. hahaha!! awesome =)
Saturday, August 19, 2006
well, 6 days since my last update.. miracle? lol. nah..
prelim practs are next week.. bio on tues and chem on thurs. i kinda shudder at the thought.. commonly, it's not carrying out the experiment.. it's the answering part.. for chem that is. need to memorise those "creating experiment" questions and QA. my chem knowledge is like close to zilch.. just doesnt get in.. or rather, in and then out again.. exactly 3 weeks more to prelims (main papers). it is fast.. the whole sept hols will be like mug mug and more mugging.. not to mention cups and plates. cant believe that i actually slept like 11 hrs today! woke up at ard 12pm.. lol. making up for the sleep debt.. LOL. and yes, the debt's cleared.. i hope. lol.
there's always this "time" in everyone's life.. and it's my turn now.. lol. i dun like it.. but, thank God that i've got Him to bring me thru.. bringing me to it.. and den bringing me thru it. =) i'm trying.. i'm trying..
i cant explain the craving for ice cream.. lol. well, not desperate but.. lol. just wanna.
aiming 6 to 7 hrs everyday.
there are some disagreements.. i feel it's just a minute thing.. but, they dun seem to think so.. come on.. it's gonna change.. i know it. where's the understanding??
space.
anything but "heart-lifting".
i'm not even sure.
i need..
prelim practs are next week.. bio on tues and chem on thurs. i kinda shudder at the thought.. commonly, it's not carrying out the experiment.. it's the answering part.. for chem that is. need to memorise those "creating experiment" questions and QA. my chem knowledge is like close to zilch.. just doesnt get in.. or rather, in and then out again.. exactly 3 weeks more to prelims (main papers). it is fast.. the whole sept hols will be like mug mug and more mugging.. not to mention cups and plates. cant believe that i actually slept like 11 hrs today! woke up at ard 12pm.. lol. making up for the sleep debt.. LOL. and yes, the debt's cleared.. i hope. lol.
there's always this "time" in everyone's life.. and it's my turn now.. lol. i dun like it.. but, thank God that i've got Him to bring me thru.. bringing me to it.. and den bringing me thru it. =) i'm trying.. i'm trying..
i cant explain the craving for ice cream.. lol. well, not desperate but.. lol. just wanna.
aiming 6 to 7 hrs everyday.
there are some disagreements.. i feel it's just a minute thing.. but, they dun seem to think so.. come on.. it's gonna change.. i know it. where's the understanding??
space.
anything but "heart-lifting".
i'm not even sure.
i need..
Sunday, August 13, 2006
it aint life if there are no ups and downs.. just like the heart monitor.. everyone knows that a straight-line reading together with an unceasing, nerve racking tone on the monitor means that that person's time is up. however, when there is life, the reading goes up and it goes down as well. perfect excerpt and analogy. now that's being alive. mountains and valleys.. it's all part of it. breathtaking sights on the mountain tops.. darkness and fears in the valleys. everyone will go through it.. it's only a matter of time.
i'm reminded of the movie, "Finding Nemo". the part where Nemo's dad, Marlin if i'm not wrong, and Dory where they were in the abyss.. the "bottomless pit" of the sea.. so dark that it was almost like void. anyways, Dory was apparently irritating Marlin, should my STM serve me right, she was repeating, "just keep swimming, just keep swimming..." it's just so right. "just keep walking" for us humans that is.. come on! it's common sense.. we all know that if we stop in darkness, it's just gonna continue to stay dark or get even darker, as our eyes adjust to the surroundings. staying on the mountain top aint a very good idea either.. imagine your heart beating at that rate all the time.. yes, you'll be dead thereafter. otherwise, in quite literal context, you'd get blown off the mountain by the strong winds or freeze or suffocate. all of a sudden, nothing seems like a good thing rite? lol. hence the need to balance out. experiencing ups and downs.. again, like our heart beating evenly.. reading up, down, up, down... on the monitor.
be thankful no matter what.. it only shows that you are alive and you are living a life.
guarding heart and mind is so important.. just like these past 2 weeks.. one was hell and another's plain awesome. i know, we all know that there will be more obstacles ahead.. but, it's a choice i'm gonna make. just keep walking and guarding. situations are only how you look at it..
"the problem is not the problem, the problem is how you think about the problem."
i'm reminded of the movie, "Finding Nemo". the part where Nemo's dad, Marlin if i'm not wrong, and Dory where they were in the abyss.. the "bottomless pit" of the sea.. so dark that it was almost like void. anyways, Dory was apparently irritating Marlin, should my STM serve me right, she was repeating, "just keep swimming, just keep swimming..." it's just so right. "just keep walking" for us humans that is.. come on! it's common sense.. we all know that if we stop in darkness, it's just gonna continue to stay dark or get even darker, as our eyes adjust to the surroundings. staying on the mountain top aint a very good idea either.. imagine your heart beating at that rate all the time.. yes, you'll be dead thereafter. otherwise, in quite literal context, you'd get blown off the mountain by the strong winds or freeze or suffocate. all of a sudden, nothing seems like a good thing rite? lol. hence the need to balance out. experiencing ups and downs.. again, like our heart beating evenly.. reading up, down, up, down... on the monitor.
be thankful no matter what.. it only shows that you are alive and you are living a life.
guarding heart and mind is so important.. just like these past 2 weeks.. one was hell and another's plain awesome. i know, we all know that there will be more obstacles ahead.. but, it's a choice i'm gonna make. just keep walking and guarding. situations are only how you look at it..
"the problem is not the problem, the problem is how you think about the problem."
i'm sure that at some point in life, everyone has been thru difficult phases.. be it the "loss of identity" phase, the "what am i doing all these for?" stage, or the "is this all to life?" stumbling block.. whichever, there is much to speak of than this..
so the question is, "what you gonna do about it?" if not, "what can i do about it?" you may ask.
i had been running. trying to shun any chance of confrontation with whatever at hand. otherwise, sumtimes i'd say, "give me all you got! i can take it!" only to find myself worry if i can actually do it just moments later. that was the past few years.. just admit it, how many of us sleep to avoid the problems and whatnots at hand. unless you are superhuman, most if not all, actually have the tendency to avoid. human's natural reaction. whatever happened to the pursuit of excellence? christian or not, it's plain to see that we are humans, and we(christians) have times that we stumble as well. let's not go into that here..
i suppose, the most frequent question that everyone ask themselves is, "does anyone truely love me, for who i am?"
there's an answer to this. of cos there is.. thing is, are you willing to accept this person's love? there IS someone.. but do you want to accept this person's love in the first place?? unless you want to, you wont experience it.. cos you'd be too harden and you keep telling yourself that it's impossible. up to the point where by, the truely possible would seem impossible to you no matter what.. unless you start changing the way you think, nothing's gonna change. and that applies to everything in life as well.
mother teresa's words, "the most terrible poverty is loneliness and the feeling of being unloved." and "the biggest disease is the feeling of being unwanted.. a burden.."
we really DON'T have to feel this way.. of cos, there were times.. inesecurities and uncertainties.. but you dont have to stay that way.. do you even want to come out of it in the first place?? make a choice and stick to it.. pressing on no matter what.
click on my link, "piece of the puzzle" this woman has many things to tell.. of which has made me see things in a different light. =) proving the point that you can bless by sharing.. =)
so the question is, "what you gonna do about it?" if not, "what can i do about it?" you may ask.
i had been running. trying to shun any chance of confrontation with whatever at hand. otherwise, sumtimes i'd say, "give me all you got! i can take it!" only to find myself worry if i can actually do it just moments later. that was the past few years.. just admit it, how many of us sleep to avoid the problems and whatnots at hand. unless you are superhuman, most if not all, actually have the tendency to avoid. human's natural reaction. whatever happened to the pursuit of excellence? christian or not, it's plain to see that we are humans, and we(christians) have times that we stumble as well. let's not go into that here..
i suppose, the most frequent question that everyone ask themselves is, "does anyone truely love me, for who i am?"
there's an answer to this. of cos there is.. thing is, are you willing to accept this person's love? there IS someone.. but do you want to accept this person's love in the first place?? unless you want to, you wont experience it.. cos you'd be too harden and you keep telling yourself that it's impossible. up to the point where by, the truely possible would seem impossible to you no matter what.. unless you start changing the way you think, nothing's gonna change. and that applies to everything in life as well.
mother teresa's words, "the most terrible poverty is loneliness and the feeling of being unloved." and "the biggest disease is the feeling of being unwanted.. a burden.."
we really DON'T have to feel this way.. of cos, there were times.. inesecurities and uncertainties.. but you dont have to stay that way.. do you even want to come out of it in the first place?? make a choice and stick to it.. pressing on no matter what.
click on my link, "piece of the puzzle" this woman has many things to tell.. of which has made me see things in a different light. =) proving the point that you can bless by sharing.. =)
Saturday, August 12, 2006
i'm living ahead of time! living in the future! haha.. wadever.. feels like it though. =S
i cant imagine having to live without Him.. i'd be like totally lost, in denial and all the whatnots.. shudder just at the thought.. =S thank God that i dun have to live without Him! =) the deepest valleys and all the rubbish.. admist all, He was there. no joke bout how deep those valleys were.. ask me n i'll tell you.. everything, anyhow, anywhere... He was and is always there. =) so glad.
i'm feeling very peaceful when everyone's like stressed.. o.O being filled with this peace and joy is simply awesome.. being filled with the spirit is great. there are just sumthings that are just difficult to explain. you'll know it when it comes to you.. =)
tuition in the morn, followed by cell.. woots! haha.. played that animal "noise" game.. haha.. nice nice.. =) presence of God was so tangible.. after cell, tried a bit of playing praise.. we tried to put the piano n guit together.. lol. put together the telescope with je =) interesting.. haha.
i love my cell. i love E237. i'm really thankful for these brothers and sisters. changes.. aplenty. growth now like never before.. it's really heartwarming. i guess most of us can really see things happening here. the feeling's really quite inexpressible.. lol.
i cant imagine having to live without Him.. i'd be like totally lost, in denial and all the whatnots.. shudder just at the thought.. =S thank God that i dun have to live without Him! =) the deepest valleys and all the rubbish.. admist all, He was there. no joke bout how deep those valleys were.. ask me n i'll tell you.. everything, anyhow, anywhere... He was and is always there. =) so glad.
i'm feeling very peaceful when everyone's like stressed.. o.O being filled with this peace and joy is simply awesome.. being filled with the spirit is great. there are just sumthings that are just difficult to explain. you'll know it when it comes to you.. =)
tuition in the morn, followed by cell.. woots! haha.. played that animal "noise" game.. haha.. nice nice.. =) presence of God was so tangible.. after cell, tried a bit of playing praise.. we tried to put the piano n guit together.. lol. put together the telescope with je =) interesting.. haha.
i love my cell. i love E237. i'm really thankful for these brothers and sisters. changes.. aplenty. growth now like never before.. it's really heartwarming. i guess most of us can really see things happening here. the feeling's really quite inexpressible.. lol.
Friday, August 11, 2006
that dream was plain plain awesome. i wanna see it happen. n u know what, it happened in the dream that when i'm still in school. which means like in this year, before i grad. wow. i really pray that this is one of those which actually do come to pass. class after class, one after another.. just what is that event?? i caught a glimpse of some paper with stuff written on it.. obviously that event.. just duno what.. okies. saying that has become rather redundant.. just what's that missing spark to ignite revival?? am i missing out sumthing as well?
all these yrs, i've never had much of a burden for AHS.. honest. not until now.. what can we do?? i want to do it.
praypraypray.
tuition at 9am tmr.. woots.
come on. more walk than talk.
all these yrs, i've never had much of a burden for AHS.. honest. not until now.. what can we do?? i want to do it.
praypraypray.
tuition at 9am tmr.. woots.
come on. more walk than talk.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
muggy wuggy.. i'm talking all funny today.. LOL. cos it was and still is, sneezy wheezy day! boo.. haha.. wadever lar.. like talking to sum kid like that.. and i've got another role to play! being sumone's teddy bear.. o.O HAHAHA.. was initially the "tree" for that "koala".. den became her teddy bear.. wadever! hahaha.. starting to recall all the "names".. eg, "grumpy teddy bear" which became "happy/smiley teddy bear" not sure bout that one.. OH NO!! i'm a bear???? eek! still got many many "names".. and all given by my cgms.. -.-"
tuition at 8am! wow.. haha.. it was early.. for a holiday. den headed to the airport.. more MUGGING! saw eve, kelly, noah and boon at the Mac there.. it was den i started sneezing non stop! even until now.. so sad. i think i'm having fever too.. i'm glad it was fruitful nevertheless =)
i'm happy =)
there's just this joy and peace inside. thankful =)
tuition at 8am! wow.. haha.. it was early.. for a holiday. den headed to the airport.. more MUGGING! saw eve, kelly, noah and boon at the Mac there.. it was den i started sneezing non stop! even until now.. so sad. i think i'm having fever too.. i'm glad it was fruitful nevertheless =)
i'm happy =)
there's just this joy and peace inside. thankful =)
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
i'm happy! today was a great day =)
but one thing, i gotta apologise for the rather expressionless face that most interpreted it as sad.. actually only 2 ppl lar.. lol. fyi, i was simply emotionless. yes.. odd.. even i find it odd. i was really just emotionless. duno why.. and rather thoughtless too.. other than, "i'd better get home before 8pm.." LOL.
lets see.. prayer meeting at jtky's house and it was just super =) you know, there are just sumtimes when i just cant get it out of my mouth.. i mean, i'm thinking it in my mind, everything that i wanna pray.. but, i just cant say it out. lol. wad nonsense rite.. =x anyway, it was really great =) went downtown after that to makan.. played duno how many times of murderer on the bus.. o.O haha! it was super funny lar.. went to this chicken rice shop which sells the rice balls thingy. alas! it was sold out. lol.. nevertheless, the meal was great. played game again! haha.. made me laugh till my stomach hurts.. "it's morphing time.." HAHAHA! wadever lar! ben n jerry's after that.. but, not before stopping at esprit. goodness lar! choosing clothes for the future whoevers.. o.O after ice cream, stop at even more shops.. lol. amazing.. simply amazing. haha.. and please.. no talk about prom dresses! argh.. i kinda regret going now.. lol.. =x
just wad's the burden?? or whatever that feeling was?? hmm..
i love kids! =) lol.. pardon the randomness..
but one thing, i gotta apologise for the rather expressionless face that most interpreted it as sad.. actually only 2 ppl lar.. lol. fyi, i was simply emotionless. yes.. odd.. even i find it odd. i was really just emotionless. duno why.. and rather thoughtless too.. other than, "i'd better get home before 8pm.." LOL.
lets see.. prayer meeting at jtky's house and it was just super =) you know, there are just sumtimes when i just cant get it out of my mouth.. i mean, i'm thinking it in my mind, everything that i wanna pray.. but, i just cant say it out. lol. wad nonsense rite.. =x anyway, it was really great =) went downtown after that to makan.. played duno how many times of murderer on the bus.. o.O haha! it was super funny lar.. went to this chicken rice shop which sells the rice balls thingy. alas! it was sold out. lol.. nevertheless, the meal was great. played game again! haha.. made me laugh till my stomach hurts.. "it's morphing time.." HAHAHA! wadever lar! ben n jerry's after that.. but, not before stopping at esprit. goodness lar! choosing clothes for the future whoevers.. o.O after ice cream, stop at even more shops.. lol. amazing.. simply amazing. haha.. and please.. no talk about prom dresses! argh.. i kinda regret going now.. lol.. =x
just wad's the burden?? or whatever that feeling was?? hmm..
i love kids! =) lol.. pardon the randomness..
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
2.4km run today.. nice way to celebrate N-day =) lol.. they changed the route.. now, it should be the actual 2.4 instead of the 2.2km for the past few yrs.. lol. it was basically the other part of the previous route.. lesser uphill thingy anyway. great weather, thank God for that =)
only managed a position of 87.. it's like 60 behind last yr i think?? lol.. so sad lar.. i'm really sad ok.. hobbled here n there thru the route.. and mr lee jie han saw me.. -.-" haha.. ankle and knee wasnt very gd even before the run.. ankle cos of my clumsiness.. hahaha. i also duno how i walked man.. on monday, was walking down the steps at the DnT there.. missed the last step and landed rather awkwardly.. =s both my right knee and ankle "shook" weirdly as i desperately try to stable myself. din fall flat.. that's a gd thing.. haha. nevertheless, completed the run and got my A =) i suppose.. haha.. should be lar. otherwise, i'd be really really sad. pui yee got 3rd! she was aiming high anyway.. haha. thank God that nothing major happened =)
i need to exercise more.. lol. swim! soon.. i hope..
i hope i did the right thing regarding sumthing.. i really felt burdened. after reading, decided to go to bed. tossing and turning, he just kept appearing in my mind. wad i had read, it kept surfacing. i felt that i had to do sumthing. i was tired. got up and wrote it. i hope i did the right thing. i hope i did sumthing.
i need to be consistent in my mugging! prelims are like...
only managed a position of 87.. it's like 60 behind last yr i think?? lol.. so sad lar.. i'm really sad ok.. hobbled here n there thru the route.. and mr lee jie han saw me.. -.-" haha.. ankle and knee wasnt very gd even before the run.. ankle cos of my clumsiness.. hahaha. i also duno how i walked man.. on monday, was walking down the steps at the DnT there.. missed the last step and landed rather awkwardly.. =s both my right knee and ankle "shook" weirdly as i desperately try to stable myself. din fall flat.. that's a gd thing.. haha. nevertheless, completed the run and got my A =) i suppose.. haha.. should be lar. otherwise, i'd be really really sad. pui yee got 3rd! she was aiming high anyway.. haha. thank God that nothing major happened =)
i need to exercise more.. lol. swim! soon.. i hope..
i hope i did the right thing regarding sumthing.. i really felt burdened. after reading, decided to go to bed. tossing and turning, he just kept appearing in my mind. wad i had read, it kept surfacing. i felt that i had to do sumthing. i was tired. got up and wrote it. i hope i did the right thing. i hope i did sumthing.
i need to be consistent in my mugging! prelims are like...
Monday, August 07, 2006
now i know what it is. that important factor that resulted in the metamorphis. openess. that's it. it's a choice, not a very difficult one.. it's u deciding on it and going through with it. that's the most common obstacle someone faces. sticking it out. true? lol.
talk about your private life as equal to your public life.
sumtimes, i really feel sad for some ppl.. it's not that they dun know.. they just cant decide and press on. lacking the determination, the faith, the perseverance.. yes, there are times when you lose sight.. but, one time or a couple of times doesnt mean forever. forever is a very very long way to go.. having the ability to think may be a downfall at this point. think, just dun think too much.
it's a load off. i'm glad.
tuition today..
discipline.
make a choice.
i know you know it.
just stick with it.
talk about your private life as equal to your public life.
sumtimes, i really feel sad for some ppl.. it's not that they dun know.. they just cant decide and press on. lacking the determination, the faith, the perseverance.. yes, there are times when you lose sight.. but, one time or a couple of times doesnt mean forever. forever is a very very long way to go.. having the ability to think may be a downfall at this point. think, just dun think too much.
it's a load off. i'm glad.
tuition today..
discipline.
make a choice.
i know you know it.
just stick with it.
Sunday, August 06, 2006
well, this week has been exceptional. especially yesterday night. ask me, and maybe i'll tell. LOL. wadever.. haha. (i'm gonna get knocked on the head for saying this. o wells. doesnt matter anyway =s) these recent spats of migraines aint helping very much.
hmm.. today was CHC's 17th anniversary!! woots! haha.. it was a great time =) really thank God for bringing me into this church, and the relationship that i have with Him. went to jos' house after svc for fellowship. she cooked. shant say anything bout it, lest she kills me after. =x but it was nice =) that part i can say rite? =p anyways, thank you jos! =D
you know, the cell's really growing.. in the area of spirituality, relationships between one another. no doubt there would be conflicts here n there.. that's what happens when humans are put together. actually, it even happens when a human's alone. whatever. lol. God's love simply fills the gaps between us all. it just feels different now. and i'm glad it's in a good way =) i'm sort of getting sumthing that i cant quite comprehend. it's not a bad thing.. that i know.. but i just cant quite say what it is..
praying for:
revelation.
revolution.
revival.
hmm.. today was CHC's 17th anniversary!! woots! haha.. it was a great time =) really thank God for bringing me into this church, and the relationship that i have with Him. went to jos' house after svc for fellowship. she cooked. shant say anything bout it, lest she kills me after. =x but it was nice =) that part i can say rite? =p anyways, thank you jos! =D
you know, the cell's really growing.. in the area of spirituality, relationships between one another. no doubt there would be conflicts here n there.. that's what happens when humans are put together. actually, it even happens when a human's alone. whatever. lol. God's love simply fills the gaps between us all. it just feels different now. and i'm glad it's in a good way =) i'm sort of getting sumthing that i cant quite comprehend. it's not a bad thing.. that i know.. but i just cant quite say what it is..
praying for:
revelation.
revolution.
revival.
Saturday, August 05, 2006
i have this feeling that ppl who read my blog (not saying all) think i have a very big prob. lol. all i can say is, dun think so much.
life has taught many of us to never assume.
managing one's expectations would be managing one's disappointments.
"A gem cannot be polished without friction, nor a man perfected without adversity."
how many of us actually talk the talk and how many of us actually walk the talk.
my bro's throwing tantrum again. it's just..
trust me when i say i can feel it. cos i can. even if you dont show it on ur face, i can sense it. this ability aint very glamarous.. on the contrary, it's rather frustrating. it confuses me. i'd have to figure if it's someone else or actually myself. affects me. naturally. just imagine, walking on the street and you are suddenly hit by a wave of emotions. the sudden urge to cry or to be really really angry. all of a sudden. u know it's not urself. i dun even know if it's a good thing or a bad thing. of cos, if you know the source (the person), you can relate and care. but if you dun know, (cos whoever ard you doesnt say anything), it's just plain bothering. not that it's a bother. i just cant help but wanna figure out who it is. i duno how the link comes about.
"Ten percent luck, twenty percent skill, Fifteen percent concentrated power of will, Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain , And a hundred percent reason to remember the name.." - Fort Minor
life has taught many of us to never assume.
managing one's expectations would be managing one's disappointments.
"A gem cannot be polished without friction, nor a man perfected without adversity."
how many of us actually talk the talk and how many of us actually walk the talk.
my bro's throwing tantrum again. it's just..
trust me when i say i can feel it. cos i can. even if you dont show it on ur face, i can sense it. this ability aint very glamarous.. on the contrary, it's rather frustrating. it confuses me. i'd have to figure if it's someone else or actually myself. affects me. naturally. just imagine, walking on the street and you are suddenly hit by a wave of emotions. the sudden urge to cry or to be really really angry. all of a sudden. u know it's not urself. i dun even know if it's a good thing or a bad thing. of cos, if you know the source (the person), you can relate and care. but if you dun know, (cos whoever ard you doesnt say anything), it's just plain bothering. not that it's a bother. i just cant help but wanna figure out who it is. i duno how the link comes about.
"Ten percent luck, twenty percent skill, Fifteen percent concentrated power of will, Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain , And a hundred percent reason to remember the name.." - Fort Minor
Friday, August 04, 2006
the school's trying to get us all in the national day mood.. lol. since thurs. they've been playing national day songs in the morn, during recesses and after school! WOW. even up till the time when like all the bio classes had to take test today after school.. -.-" hahahah! wonder who came up with this idea.. LOL. needless to say, i guess we students have some idea. migraine and feeling nausea.. that was this day's experience.. lol.
long day today.. lessons, 2 tests.. one after sch.. followed by chem enhancement.. rushed home, had my breakfast of cup noodles (YES. breakfast. due to lack of time, seriously) and rushed for tuition.. practically brain dead. =X but it was relatively ok. good thing managed to get some sleep yesterday night (today morn). yesterday, i was super dazed. and having gastrics at the same time. o.O lol.. i was stoning on the bus. reached home and threw up thereafter.. shouldnt have eaten i guess. haha.. was so so drained that i was afraid that i wouldnt be able to wake up.. but, thank God =) woke up even earlier.. haha. n i wasnt as tired as i thought i'd be. =) lili asked/said/mentioned that i seem to have a lot of probs.. o wells, i dun wan them either.. n yes, i do feel problematic. really.. i feel like i'm always complaining and well, just dun wanna feel like such a burden. heartfelt thoughts.. yes. i'm only human to think this way. i think she's the first to be so honest. kinda.. (hiding? should it be that way?)
i'm standing on the edge. precarious situation. one deciding step. just one. it'd spell out.
reaching out is super exciting! really must keep fasting n praying.. =)
service, to achieve excellence.
long day today.. lessons, 2 tests.. one after sch.. followed by chem enhancement.. rushed home, had my breakfast of cup noodles (YES. breakfast. due to lack of time, seriously) and rushed for tuition.. practically brain dead. =X but it was relatively ok. good thing managed to get some sleep yesterday night (today morn). yesterday, i was super dazed. and having gastrics at the same time. o.O lol.. i was stoning on the bus. reached home and threw up thereafter.. shouldnt have eaten i guess. haha.. was so so drained that i was afraid that i wouldnt be able to wake up.. but, thank God =) woke up even earlier.. haha. n i wasnt as tired as i thought i'd be. =) lili asked/said/mentioned that i seem to have a lot of probs.. o wells, i dun wan them either.. n yes, i do feel problematic. really.. i feel like i'm always complaining and well, just dun wanna feel like such a burden. heartfelt thoughts.. yes. i'm only human to think this way. i think she's the first to be so honest. kinda.. (hiding? should it be that way?)
i'm standing on the edge. precarious situation. one deciding step. just one. it'd spell out.
reaching out is super exciting! really must keep fasting n praying.. =)
service, to achieve excellence.
Thursday, August 03, 2006
never wanna concede defeat to this.
it's bothering and very draining.
i feel like fainting at this moment.
i'm serious.
strength seems to have vanished so instantaneously.
i feel so vunerable now.
the voices and thoughts.
i'm afraid.
i really am.
i'm quite literally strengthless at this moment
feeling that i'm gonna collaspe anytime.
stared into space on the bus back.
i knew i was stoning but i couldnt not do that.
struggling to be conscious.
dreadful grip, unshakeable.
it's bothering and very draining.
i feel like fainting at this moment.
i'm serious.
strength seems to have vanished so instantaneously.
i feel so vunerable now.
the voices and thoughts.
i'm afraid.
i really am.
i'm quite literally strengthless at this moment
feeling that i'm gonna collaspe anytime.
stared into space on the bus back.
i knew i was stoning but i couldnt not do that.
struggling to be conscious.
dreadful grip, unshakeable.
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
why do people only want to cherish what they have when realise that they are losing it?
not knowing how blessed one is until one loses that blessing..
i know i sound kinda down-the-drain..
so much thoughts just kept me quite awake last night.. tossed and turned.. i felt that i had so many things to do and that i had to do it all at that time. so, just to take things off my mind (din know why it bothered me so much as well), msged her to ask bout it. just when i was finally about to get into sleep mode, a phone call came. the off switch immediately flipped back on.
sumtimes, these bombards of tests or basically busyness, really makes one lose interest so fast and it happens just like that. a test of patience it becomes.. making us wonder, are these really worthwhile? we seem to think that we are wasting our time, not making the best out of it. is that really what it is? the phrase, "there must be more than this" keeps popping into my head. trying to look ahead to see what holds.. we are not perfect and neither is our vision, everything seems a blur. it happens to everyone, it's the same everywhere. the uncertainty we've allowed to get a grip on us. is it really necessary? is this what it means to "grow up"? that it's all what we call, part and parcel of life?
it's just so tempting to slip.. it's that easy as well. all one has to do is just close ur eyes.
no more. no more. no more. >_<
not knowing how blessed one is until one loses that blessing..
i know i sound kinda down-the-drain..
so much thoughts just kept me quite awake last night.. tossed and turned.. i felt that i had so many things to do and that i had to do it all at that time. so, just to take things off my mind (din know why it bothered me so much as well), msged her to ask bout it. just when i was finally about to get into sleep mode, a phone call came. the off switch immediately flipped back on.
sumtimes, these bombards of tests or basically busyness, really makes one lose interest so fast and it happens just like that. a test of patience it becomes.. making us wonder, are these really worthwhile? we seem to think that we are wasting our time, not making the best out of it. is that really what it is? the phrase, "there must be more than this" keeps popping into my head. trying to look ahead to see what holds.. we are not perfect and neither is our vision, everything seems a blur. it happens to everyone, it's the same everywhere. the uncertainty we've allowed to get a grip on us. is it really necessary? is this what it means to "grow up"? that it's all what we call, part and parcel of life?
it's just so tempting to slip.. it's that easy as well. all one has to do is just close ur eyes.
no more. no more. no more. >_<