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Friday, September 29, 2006
SGH today.. was late by ard 20 mins due to the traffic jam. the test went quite alrite i guess.. i hope. the journey back seemed relatively short compare to the other times.. i was feeling super tired actually.. not sure why. came home and napped for awhile.. tuition at 3.30.. lili's mum's super nice =) hahah..
i thank God for lili =) despite her exams, she's still taking time to tutor me.. really appreciate it. i've seen how people can get super overwhelmed by uni.. this person who gave me the first impression to be very "dao" ended up ok.. hahaha.. yea.. i was really afraid of her.. from an F9 to a D7.. now, a B4.. to me, a person who's way horrible at math, it's amazing.. =) i pray that it's gonna get even better. =p
sch's gonna start moderating on monday.. means they'll hand us the final one by friday?? hopefully.. and let us know when's study break, if there even is, as well.. *pray pray pray*
was reading someone's blog.. made me really think even more..
i thank God for lili =) despite her exams, she's still taking time to tutor me.. really appreciate it. i've seen how people can get super overwhelmed by uni.. this person who gave me the first impression to be very "dao" ended up ok.. hahaha.. yea.. i was really afraid of her.. from an F9 to a D7.. now, a B4.. to me, a person who's way horrible at math, it's amazing.. =) i pray that it's gonna get even better. =p
sch's gonna start moderating on monday.. means they'll hand us the final one by friday?? hopefully.. and let us know when's study break, if there even is, as well.. *pray pray pray*
was reading someone's blog.. made me really think even more..
kids do the weirdest things these days... was on my way back from tuition when i saw this bunch of pri sch kids ard the soccer court area.. there was this boy, lighting a match, blew it out and then put it into his mouth.. i was like, "what the..." haven they anything better to do.. and they find it amusing. o.O
i cant really express how i feel at the moment. you know.. at times, just after the "high" phase there's this other phase.. maybe phase aint such a gd word to use here.. just that.. o well.
i cant really express how i feel at the moment. you know.. at times, just after the "high" phase there's this other phase.. maybe phase aint such a gd word to use here.. just that.. o well.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
my L1R5 should either be 13 or 14.. that's not gd enough. i've got no one to blame.. seriously. studying felt as if i werent at all during and before the time of prelims.. i din even knew how much actually went in. thank God so much.. i wouldnt have been able to achieve this if it werent for Him. and no one knows how true that is except for me.. i was convicted. i gave in so many times to the "sleep monster" and yet, God still blessed me. argh. the ACP thing is still not up yet.. anyway, if my memory serves me right, my mid-yr was either a 22 or 25. i remember seeing 25 on the ACP. anyway, it's like a difference of close to 10 pts.. of cos, i din study for my mid yrs.. just read thru and prolly pract-ed a bit.. cant rmb that one.. and well, this prelims i cant say that its that much work put in either.. i can definitely do way better. =) hehe.. hey, it's possible! =D btw, i think i've managed an A2 for my eng! woots! *hopeful* it was based on my calculations, according to the percentage that i was told. hope the info's right!! hahaha.. i'm glad. it's really a miracle =) although i just passed my paper2, thankfully my oral and paper1 was high enough.. i need to start reading more! the newspapers shall be my good frens =) hahaha.. they've always been.. lol. =p
i'm gonna stick to the time-table that i've done. i am.
i really hope that the study break will be long. 3 wks?? (being hopeful) i want it and i need it. with it, i can maximise my time fully.. *prays*
i'm gonna stick to the time-table that i've done. i am.
i really hope that the study break will be long. 3 wks?? (being hopeful) i want it and i need it. with it, i can maximise my time fully.. *prays*
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
i miss my partner on court. i miss my pri sch peeps, especially the bballers.
my partner on court. not that i dun work with the others in the team, i just feel that there's this 默契 between the both of us. we can play and coordinate with out talking, know when to pass and where each other are on court. even until now! haha.. the occassional plays with the kids and stuff like that.. it's amazing. we can sorta communicate without talking =) hahaha.. of cos, there are certain times that we'd miss a ball or two.. but, it's just a very strong feeling. knowing how each other move, the intention of play. we've play together since pri 2.. for 4 yrs, i guess we come to brush off each other.. i miss playing ball with my old teammates.. just enjoying the game, pure and simple. some, even after 4 yrs cant work well together.. lol. it's really amazing.. games after games.. i miss those days. i'm really thankful for her.. without her, the games wont be what they are.. mind you, she's our top scorer.. haha.. without her, i wouldnt really be who i am.. i guess we all get influenced by each other.. and that she has done, in a great way =)
i miss the laughters and the tears.
my partner on court. not that i dun work with the others in the team, i just feel that there's this 默契 between the both of us. we can play and coordinate with out talking, know when to pass and where each other are on court. even until now! haha.. the occassional plays with the kids and stuff like that.. it's amazing. we can sorta communicate without talking =) hahaha.. of cos, there are certain times that we'd miss a ball or two.. but, it's just a very strong feeling. knowing how each other move, the intention of play. we've play together since pri 2.. for 4 yrs, i guess we come to brush off each other.. i miss playing ball with my old teammates.. just enjoying the game, pure and simple. some, even after 4 yrs cant work well together.. lol. it's really amazing.. games after games.. i miss those days. i'm really thankful for her.. without her, the games wont be what they are.. mind you, she's our top scorer.. haha.. without her, i wouldnt really be who i am.. i guess we all get influenced by each other.. and that she has done, in a great way =)
i miss the laughters and the tears.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
YAY!! Praise God!! =D
managed to get that ONE mark to pass my eng paper 2.. by me, it's still rather pathetic.. but nevertheless, thank God! nearly couldnt get it man.. got back amath and geog1.. i feel kinda cheated by the geog.. din do really well for paper1.
currently......
GEOG: A2
BIO: A1 (barely)
AMATH: B4 (surprisingly)
HCL: C5
now, left with Lit, Emath and Chem..
the math really was a miracle.. when i just finished the paper, my first thought was," DIE." lol.. seriously.. after that, there was like no feeling. okies.. that's not quite counted.. cos i practically din feel much during the whole thing.. except for chemistry i guess.. i was rather panicky den.. o.O hope that my emath would be an A? hopefully.. and Eng a B3.. it's possible. i pray.
gonna start planning my timetable proper.. hmm.. where's that BIG planner with BIG squares... do i even have them this yr?? HMMM... where should i put the timetable???
managed to get that ONE mark to pass my eng paper 2.. by me, it's still rather pathetic.. but nevertheless, thank God! nearly couldnt get it man.. got back amath and geog1.. i feel kinda cheated by the geog.. din do really well for paper1.
currently......
GEOG: A2
BIO: A1 (barely)
AMATH: B4 (surprisingly)
HCL: C5
now, left with Lit, Emath and Chem..
the math really was a miracle.. when i just finished the paper, my first thought was," DIE." lol.. seriously.. after that, there was like no feeling. okies.. that's not quite counted.. cos i practically din feel much during the whole thing.. except for chemistry i guess.. i was rather panicky den.. o.O hope that my emath would be an A? hopefully.. and Eng a B3.. it's possible. i pray.
gonna start planning my timetable proper.. hmm.. where's that BIG planner with BIG squares... do i even have them this yr?? HMMM... where should i put the timetable???
Monday, September 25, 2006
i'm disappointed by my results so far.. no, i'll not be in despair.
eng paper 2: failed. by one mark.
social studies: failed. by 3 mrks.
disappointed, as i thought it was quite alrite. i had high expectations, especially for my english. banking much on it.. especially since it were to be for my L1. i was shocked when i initially saw the grade. then, there just wasnt anymore feelings. i'm not like totally down in the dumps kinda thing.. just surprised. i believe that my compos and oral would be able to pull it up quite a bit. hopefully. as for social studies, i guess i just cant grasp what the question wants. my concept wrong? interpretation of the question and the type of answers that they actually want is wrong? i duno.. just checked the marks only.. din really have a chance to look thru the paper..
i still thank God. thank God that it aint any worse and that it's rather hear the borderline mark, so that my other parts can still pull it up. =) thank God for my geog! it's the higher so far i think.. most likely.. even though we haven gotten back paper 1, i think that an A1 is actually achieveable. =) we'll see how the other papers turn out tmr.. it'd honestly be a blow if anything happened to my bio. but, i'm believing that it'll be just fine. no matter what the grades turn out to be, i'll just work harder. yep. =)
i need to learn to balance out.
eng paper 2: failed. by one mark.
social studies: failed. by 3 mrks.
disappointed, as i thought it was quite alrite. i had high expectations, especially for my english. banking much on it.. especially since it were to be for my L1. i was shocked when i initially saw the grade. then, there just wasnt anymore feelings. i'm not like totally down in the dumps kinda thing.. just surprised. i believe that my compos and oral would be able to pull it up quite a bit. hopefully. as for social studies, i guess i just cant grasp what the question wants. my concept wrong? interpretation of the question and the type of answers that they actually want is wrong? i duno.. just checked the marks only.. din really have a chance to look thru the paper..
i still thank God. thank God that it aint any worse and that it's rather hear the borderline mark, so that my other parts can still pull it up. =) thank God for my geog! it's the higher so far i think.. most likely.. even though we haven gotten back paper 1, i think that an A1 is actually achieveable. =) we'll see how the other papers turn out tmr.. it'd honestly be a blow if anything happened to my bio. but, i'm believing that it'll be just fine. no matter what the grades turn out to be, i'll just work harder. yep. =)
i need to learn to balance out.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
melissA: anytime dear =)
the results will be out tmr. hopefully they can finish the marking.. den again, i seriously doubt. come on.. it's plain torture for the teachers..
i need to put in more effort bout remembering things about the people ard me.. sometimes, i feel like i've been neglecting some ppl.. it's not that i dun want to care.. i'm just not aware.. sumthing like that. and sometimes, i'm just hesitant.. like, how should i go about doing it that kinda thing.. den again, JUST DO IT. certain things, i think that we should "just do it". see how fast time flies.. think about how much regrets that you have had or are having now.. can you actually count them?
when was the last time you appreciated someone?
when was the last time you complimented someone?
when was the last time you cared for someone? (esp someone dear)
say,
"thank you"
"sorry"
"i love you"
(and truely mean it)
many a times we are just so angry.. we want the concern.. we want the attention.. every thought seemingly starts with, "i want..", "what about me?".. think about it.
do u want to regret all your life?
i dont.
that test thing at SGH this coming friday at 8am!! means i wont be going to sch. it's early in the morn.. way early.. i think i'd better ask my uncle to get me there.. on his way anyway..
the results will be out tmr. hopefully they can finish the marking.. den again, i seriously doubt. come on.. it's plain torture for the teachers..
i need to put in more effort bout remembering things about the people ard me.. sometimes, i feel like i've been neglecting some ppl.. it's not that i dun want to care.. i'm just not aware.. sumthing like that. and sometimes, i'm just hesitant.. like, how should i go about doing it that kinda thing.. den again, JUST DO IT. certain things, i think that we should "just do it". see how fast time flies.. think about how much regrets that you have had or are having now.. can you actually count them?
when was the last time you appreciated someone?
when was the last time you complimented someone?
when was the last time you cared for someone? (esp someone dear)
say,
"thank you"
"sorry"
"i love you"
(and truely mean it)
many a times we are just so angry.. we want the concern.. we want the attention.. every thought seemingly starts with, "i want..", "what about me?".. think about it.
do u want to regret all your life?
i dont.
that test thing at SGH this coming friday at 8am!! means i wont be going to sch. it's early in the morn.. way early.. i think i'd better ask my uncle to get me there.. on his way anyway..
Saturday, September 23, 2006
i kinda left the wanting of those shades at the back of my mind for sometime.. BUT. my spasticated darling brought it up!! AHHH!! haha.. wadevaa~ i'm gonna save up for it.. save save save.. out of the little that i actually do have left to save.. HAHAHA...
that aside, i also need to save for my diving trip! any sponsors??? hehe.. planning to go nxt end january?? ard there.. not sure leisure dive or advance though.. it's been so long since i've dived!! i miss the fish! hahaha.. n the turtle and the dolphins.. haha.. woots! i'm getting high just thinking bout it.. i think i've forgotten quite a bit already.. =S
wad should my education course be like??? hmm.. i wanna be able to help people. there were 3 types on my mind.. (recent yrs) marine biologist, psychologist and medical officer.. after talking with Nies.. occupational/physio- therapist seems to fit the bill.. and no, i dun wish for my future career to be "it's-just-a-job" kinda thing.. i think i shall leave out the marine biologist. i love the sea.. i love the creatures.. but, i dun think that there will be this sense of satisfaction.. in a way. i'm considering the foundation yr course with UNSW at Temasek Poly.. den again, where am i heading? on the other hand, i could go JC, den straight to NYP and into the course that Nies mentioned.. i'm serious bout it. plus, if that's the case, i'd most prolly do night courses on psychology if there are such and the sched aint too much.. how how?? mind boggling.. at this point, i wish to see some extremely clear cut paths that lead to the different careers.. lol.
neck's feeling better now.. and i have no idea why i woke at ard 6am when i could sleep longer.. hahah.. argh.. lol.. that's very early for a saturday.. one more day left.. after which, the mugging shall carry on.. kinda apprehensive.. haha.. Lord, give me the strength to go on..
that aside, i also need to save for my diving trip! any sponsors??? hehe.. planning to go nxt end january?? ard there.. not sure leisure dive or advance though.. it's been so long since i've dived!! i miss the fish! hahaha.. n the turtle and the dolphins.. haha.. woots! i'm getting high just thinking bout it.. i think i've forgotten quite a bit already.. =S
wad should my education course be like??? hmm.. i wanna be able to help people. there were 3 types on my mind.. (recent yrs) marine biologist, psychologist and medical officer.. after talking with Nies.. occupational/physio- therapist seems to fit the bill.. and no, i dun wish for my future career to be "it's-just-a-job" kinda thing.. i think i shall leave out the marine biologist. i love the sea.. i love the creatures.. but, i dun think that there will be this sense of satisfaction.. in a way. i'm considering the foundation yr course with UNSW at Temasek Poly.. den again, where am i heading? on the other hand, i could go JC, den straight to NYP and into the course that Nies mentioned.. i'm serious bout it. plus, if that's the case, i'd most prolly do night courses on psychology if there are such and the sched aint too much.. how how?? mind boggling.. at this point, i wish to see some extremely clear cut paths that lead to the different careers.. lol.
neck's feeling better now.. and i have no idea why i woke at ard 6am when i could sleep longer.. hahah.. argh.. lol.. that's very early for a saturday.. one more day left.. after which, the mugging shall carry on.. kinda apprehensive.. haha.. Lord, give me the strength to go on..
Friday, September 22, 2006
(JT, i was referring to the post on thursday.. sept21. =) n i dun quite get wad u were asking today.. lol. )
as planned, thank God for the great weather =) swam more than i normally would alone or with yin ling.. lol. it felt great! haha.. surprisingly, not tiring at all.. i felt that i could just go on and on and on.. hahah.. just that, water was like entering my ear.. sum pressure prob.. argh. =s
i'm sleepy.. yes.. it's weird to blog saying that i'm tired.. rotted at city hall station.. hahaha.. honestly, i really felt like fainting already.. ate at newyorknewyork.. nice place =) food's nice too.. lol. walked ard.. je and ai bought earrings.. btw, thanks jt! =) went to the arcade and laughed A LOT.. hahaha! play until so cartoon lar! hahah.. it was fun! =D hehe.. but, my daytona steering wheel was screwed!! =( o well, it was nevertheless a great time! lol.. awesome..
*yawn..* (my neck hurts..) o.O
as planned, thank God for the great weather =) swam more than i normally would alone or with yin ling.. lol. it felt great! haha.. surprisingly, not tiring at all.. i felt that i could just go on and on and on.. hahah.. just that, water was like entering my ear.. sum pressure prob.. argh. =s
i'm sleepy.. yes.. it's weird to blog saying that i'm tired.. rotted at city hall station.. hahaha.. honestly, i really felt like fainting already.. ate at newyorknewyork.. nice place =) food's nice too.. lol. walked ard.. je and ai bought earrings.. btw, thanks jt! =) went to the arcade and laughed A LOT.. hahaha! play until so cartoon lar! hahah.. it was fun! =D hehe.. but, my daytona steering wheel was screwed!! =( o well, it was nevertheless a great time! lol.. awesome..
*yawn..* (my neck hurts..) o.O
woots! it's like 8am.. and there's NO school today.. haha.. for most ppl that is.. hmm. i'm surprised that i'm so awake and well rested.. considering that i slept at ard 3am plus.. hahah.. in fact, i've never felt so refreshed after some time.. the exams have been screwing up my bio clock. okies.. lets not put the blame on it.. i need to balance out.. haha.. =x
yay! swimming at 10am with nies! haha.. looking out my window, it's kinda cloudy? but not dark clouds that kind? the sun's up! so that's fine i guess =) prolly the evil haze doing its work early in the morn.. lol.
it was quite a dreamless night.. i suppose. hahah.. i know i dreamt of sumthing.. but i cant quite remember it already. anyways ytd's dream was like a total nightmare! not that i woke up in sweat or anything.. humans cant sweat anyway.. (so when ppl say, "no sweat!" it's kind like duh~ hahah! okies.. nvm..) ytd's dream was like the apocaylaspe! EEK! not sure if it was cos i was reading geog.. about destruction of winds and floods.. blah blah.. climatic disasters and such.. most prolly.. LOL. it's those kinda run here and there dream.. wasnt situated in s'pore for sure.. cos i was using a map with odd road names.. lol. it's kinda hilarious.. hahah! a mixed dream i guess.. kinda have an impression that i've had it before though.. the first part was like an outing.. that kinda amazing race thing.. but at the hospital?! haha.. sumthing like that.. it place was BIG! and familiar to a certain extent. anyways, i cant quite remember how it became the apocaylaspe thing.. lol.. a lot of ppl that i know appeared in it.. in fact, it seemed like everyone.. jt got hurt! cant rmb how and stuff like that.. it just wasnt a very pleasant sight.. quite odd too in fact. i rmb distinctively that i saw bk too! haha.. how peculiar rite?!
when i woke up.. i was just simply dazed. not a very gd thing as i had a paper later.. argh.. lol.. when i was just flipping through my text, i was well.. just flipping thru. lol...
yay! swimming at 10am with nies! haha.. looking out my window, it's kinda cloudy? but not dark clouds that kind? the sun's up! so that's fine i guess =) prolly the evil haze doing its work early in the morn.. lol.
it was quite a dreamless night.. i suppose. hahah.. i know i dreamt of sumthing.. but i cant quite remember it already. anyways ytd's dream was like a total nightmare! not that i woke up in sweat or anything.. humans cant sweat anyway.. (so when ppl say, "no sweat!" it's kind like duh~ hahah! okies.. nvm..) ytd's dream was like the apocaylaspe! EEK! not sure if it was cos i was reading geog.. about destruction of winds and floods.. blah blah.. climatic disasters and such.. most prolly.. LOL. it's those kinda run here and there dream.. wasnt situated in s'pore for sure.. cos i was using a map with odd road names.. lol. it's kinda hilarious.. hahah! a mixed dream i guess.. kinda have an impression that i've had it before though.. the first part was like an outing.. that kinda amazing race thing.. but at the hospital?! haha.. sumthing like that.. it place was BIG! and familiar to a certain extent. anyways, i cant quite remember how it became the apocaylaspe thing.. lol.. a lot of ppl that i know appeared in it.. in fact, it seemed like everyone.. jt got hurt! cant rmb how and stuff like that.. it just wasnt a very pleasant sight.. quite odd too in fact. i rmb distinctively that i saw bk too! haha.. how peculiar rite?!
when i woke up.. i was just simply dazed. not a very gd thing as i had a paper later.. argh.. lol.. when i was just flipping through my text, i was well.. just flipping thru. lol...
Thursday, September 21, 2006
i'm a very happy person today! haha.. =D
first and foremost, greatly blessed to have jang as a sister =) i was great over at her place with je.. honestly, it's what i've been praying for.. i'd say it's a great breakthrough =)
it seems that well, i kinda face this barrier especially with my leaders.. lol. it's hard to explain.. i'm just well, afraid that i cross the line?? even though i want the relationship to go to another level, i'm kinda afraid that well, the other person just wants it to stay there.. lol. not sure that, what's ok and what's not.. when can i ask a question and when can i not.. it's those kinda "oh, you are my leader and there should be some dist" thing.. for different ppl, works differently i guess.. and i find that i'd be there assuming all the the time.. =s and, like i said before, assumption isnt very good a thing. (con't on the other blog)
and jang, i'd always make time for you =) not sure if u even will read this but yea.. i'll do my very very best to make promises and keep them. =) i love you.
tmr i'm gonna get to see someone i've greatly missed! nies! =D pray that it doesnt rain tmr.. missed her so much.. lol..
first and foremost, greatly blessed to have jang as a sister =) i was great over at her place with je.. honestly, it's what i've been praying for.. i'd say it's a great breakthrough =)
it seems that well, i kinda face this barrier especially with my leaders.. lol. it's hard to explain.. i'm just well, afraid that i cross the line?? even though i want the relationship to go to another level, i'm kinda afraid that well, the other person just wants it to stay there.. lol. not sure that, what's ok and what's not.. when can i ask a question and when can i not.. it's those kinda "oh, you are my leader and there should be some dist" thing.. for different ppl, works differently i guess.. and i find that i'd be there assuming all the the time.. =s and, like i said before, assumption isnt very good a thing. (con't on the other blog)
and jang, i'd always make time for you =) not sure if u even will read this but yea.. i'll do my very very best to make promises and keep them. =) i love you.
tmr i'm gonna get to see someone i've greatly missed! nies! =D pray that it doesnt rain tmr.. missed her so much.. lol..
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
to shara: WEI.. dun anyhow say hor.. please lor.. u guys assume/presume only lor.. tease non-stop.. HAI.. lol. i dun even know what kind of relationship it was... hahaha..
to ph: erm.. it's not that i blog in chinese lar.. haha.. just recycled it only.. haha.
40 more boxes to go! honestly, i have like no feeling whatsoever about this prelims.. so, dun ask me how it was??? i wont know what to say.. lol. not meaning that it's bad.. just.. *shrugs* no feeling? yea... haha.
i think they should have just put the geog mcqs today.. with the core lit peeps.. cant clash cos it's both core subj.. o wells.. now, only 4A's over and done with the prelims.. *envy envy* hahaha! wadeva.. at least there's no sch on friday.. oh, i cant imagine nor believe that the teachers can finish marking the papers by monday.. is it possible?? wad's more, the results to be keyed in by tuesday.. o.O we shall see how it goes.. although i'm rather doubtful bout it.. =x not exactly their ability.. but, it's just torture.. rushing thru stacks of papers over the weekends.. you know what i mean..
hmm.. i dun think i'll blog much on the other blog.. just mayb when i feel like it only.. =)
to ph: erm.. it's not that i blog in chinese lar.. haha.. just recycled it only.. haha.
40 more boxes to go! honestly, i have like no feeling whatsoever about this prelims.. so, dun ask me how it was??? i wont know what to say.. lol. not meaning that it's bad.. just.. *shrugs* no feeling? yea... haha.
i think they should have just put the geog mcqs today.. with the core lit peeps.. cant clash cos it's both core subj.. o wells.. now, only 4A's over and done with the prelims.. *envy envy* hahaha! wadeva.. at least there's no sch on friday.. oh, i cant imagine nor believe that the teachers can finish marking the papers by monday.. is it possible?? wad's more, the results to be keyed in by tuesday.. o.O we shall see how it goes.. although i'm rather doubtful bout it.. =x not exactly their ability.. but, it's just torture.. rushing thru stacks of papers over the weekends.. you know what i mean..
hmm.. i dun think i'll blog much on the other blog.. just mayb when i feel like it only.. =)
Monday, September 18, 2006
decided to "create" another blog.. basically just changed the url for that chinese blogging thingy the other time.. prolly change the skin another time.. i should be studying.
it's exclusive. haha.
only permitted for the eyes of certain people.. if they wanna read that is.
wanna know if you are the one?? haha.. just ask. i'll let u know if you have the secret password. =)
and some ppl go.. "wadeva~" LOL.
it's exclusive. haha.
only permitted for the eyes of certain people.. if they wanna read that is.
wanna know if you are the one?? haha.. just ask. i'll let u know if you have the secret password. =)
and some ppl go.. "wadeva~" LOL.
i nearly forgot.. =p thanks to jang for her comforting hugs =) ultimately, thank God for these brothers and sisters.. yao peng and mun keat's lame jokes cracked me up big time! hahaha.. =D
couldnt hold my composure ytd night. i have no idea why either.. it just happened. i was kinda freaked by it myself.. just *snap finger* and it happened..
hmm.. i kinda forgot what it feels like to be hungry.. LOL. just recently, i can practically dun eat the whole day and well, feel nothing.. haha.. no mood to eat.. hahaha.. nonsense. do you eat to live of live to eat?? i rmb my pri sch teacher asking us this.. a wave of nostalgia again.. lol.. those were the days.. full of true innocent joy and excitement.. until pri 6 that is. i rmb the embarrassing moments, the lame jokes.. the ghost stories.. the games.. that very April Fools' prank the teachers played on us.. caused quite a number of ppl to actually cry.. lol.. lovely. embarrassing moments? one very distinct memory.. HAHAHA.. it's ok to put it here i suppose.. it was so long ago.. even though, we still get teased by juniors (teachers spreaded the rumours) and even the teachers.. lol.. i'm not very sure if ms lim actually recorded it.. but, i was made to dance with WH, who everyone always tease us together.. does it sound confusing?? it's kinda hard to put it in words actually.. haha.. basically teased to be a couple with him.. den was made to dance with in front of the class.. plus, if my memory serves me right, ms lim recorded it. sigh.. haha.. the teasing was non stop kinda thing.. lol.. just imagine, about 4 yrs later and the teasing still goes on.. although not as much already.. lol.. i'm really thankful for the teachers letting me watch the video with 6.1.. those were really great times =) n i still rmb RC's flower smelling jersey! haha.. training our guts out together, cheering till our throats were sore during matches and everything.. lessons.. and yet another embarrassing moment with WH.. haha.. it was an ACCIDENT! come on.. girls and guys trained together, played matches together.. there was once that we kinda bungled up together twice.. it was extremely awkward! on top of that, more teasing.. especially by ms tan.. she never stops.. lol.
just got back frm SGH.. gotta go do the strength test again on 29th Sept.. den go back again to see the doc on 6th Oct.. i pray that this will be it. man was the train ride long. sumtimes, i like long bus/train rides, sumtimes i just dont.. cos it gives ppl time to think.. and well, sumtimes the thoughts just arnt that encouraging.. lol. just like today.. saw kelly pok on the way back.. pint size cutie! haha.. wad a darling =)
was reading XT's blog.. it's very true.. and it's sad to see it happen.
Lord, i pray that You teach me how to love. Give me a greater capacity to love others. Lord, it's no longer me, myself and I.. it is You. guide me in this.. in Jesus' name, Amen.
couldnt hold my composure ytd night. i have no idea why either.. it just happened. i was kinda freaked by it myself.. just *snap finger* and it happened..
hmm.. i kinda forgot what it feels like to be hungry.. LOL. just recently, i can practically dun eat the whole day and well, feel nothing.. haha.. no mood to eat.. hahaha.. nonsense. do you eat to live of live to eat?? i rmb my pri sch teacher asking us this.. a wave of nostalgia again.. lol.. those were the days.. full of true innocent joy and excitement.. until pri 6 that is. i rmb the embarrassing moments, the lame jokes.. the ghost stories.. the games.. that very April Fools' prank the teachers played on us.. caused quite a number of ppl to actually cry.. lol.. lovely. embarrassing moments? one very distinct memory.. HAHAHA.. it's ok to put it here i suppose.. it was so long ago.. even though, we still get teased by juniors (teachers spreaded the rumours) and even the teachers.. lol.. i'm not very sure if ms lim actually recorded it.. but, i was made to dance with WH, who everyone always tease us together.. does it sound confusing?? it's kinda hard to put it in words actually.. haha.. basically teased to be a couple with him.. den was made to dance with in front of the class.. plus, if my memory serves me right, ms lim recorded it. sigh.. haha.. the teasing was non stop kinda thing.. lol.. just imagine, about 4 yrs later and the teasing still goes on.. although not as much already.. lol.. i'm really thankful for the teachers letting me watch the video with 6.1.. those were really great times =) n i still rmb RC's flower smelling jersey! haha.. training our guts out together, cheering till our throats were sore during matches and everything.. lessons.. and yet another embarrassing moment with WH.. haha.. it was an ACCIDENT! come on.. girls and guys trained together, played matches together.. there was once that we kinda bungled up together twice.. it was extremely awkward! on top of that, more teasing.. especially by ms tan.. she never stops.. lol.
just got back frm SGH.. gotta go do the strength test again on 29th Sept.. den go back again to see the doc on 6th Oct.. i pray that this will be it. man was the train ride long. sumtimes, i like long bus/train rides, sumtimes i just dont.. cos it gives ppl time to think.. and well, sumtimes the thoughts just arnt that encouraging.. lol. just like today.. saw kelly pok on the way back.. pint size cutie! haha.. wad a darling =)
was reading XT's blog.. it's very true.. and it's sad to see it happen.
Lord, i pray that You teach me how to love. Give me a greater capacity to love others. Lord, it's no longer me, myself and I.. it is You. guide me in this.. in Jesus' name, Amen.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
post no. 237.
thanks micky and joanne for being there and listening..
there's so many things that i wanna just shout out.. but i cant and i wont. =)
thanks micky and joanne for being there and listening..
there's so many things that i wanna just shout out.. but i cant and i wont. =)
the next song that's stuck in my head!!
ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE~~
haha.. that's just so random..
i gotta conquer! and i WILL. sigh.. hahaha.. how anti-climax this sigh is.. LOL. it kinda doesnt help that much when ppl dun want to reply.. o.O *shrugs* gives me the feeling that, well.. it dont matter at all.. i know i know.. dun think that way.. but how can i when that's what it seems?? r you even wanting to listen?? r u even wanting to make time.. what am i thinking now? -- "just cut the crap! just keep your mouth shut. it'll do everyone the favour.." that's just not right.. stop "but God.."-ing.. sheesh..
24/7?? unlikely eh? LOL.
OH! i've learnt to fall in love with my guitar again.. it helps when your guitar is your "husband".. haha.. or "boyfriend".. whichever.. work with it.. not against it.. it applies to almost everything. =) learn to flow~
COMMUNICATION. <----- that is a really really really BIG word. believe it or not.. well, no prizes to those who already realise... hahah.. COMMUNICATION = LISTENING+TALKING+UNDERSTANDING. the 5 lvls.. and i'm stuck at lvl 3.. it's just like, ONE wrong move, you trip the sensors and all the barricades come crashing down just in a blink of an eye.. i'm serious.. the brain and heart works that fast.. haha.. and that's science for you. kinda reminds me of those spy movies.. just one slip up, you come in contact with the red/green sensors that's strewn all over.. BOOM! WHAM~! lol.. the metal bars lock the windows, the door shuts tight, doubled with extra grills and ultra thick things to either keep the person in or out.. whichever. it's a barrier no doubt. (whichever way you look at it) wad an extraordinary defence mechanism.. the thing is, you try to open up? it takes a seriously loooong time...... okies.. maybe not that long.. but there's just this tendency to not want to?? so u keep the harzard in and the perpetrator out. EEK.
i wish.. i pray.. i hope.. that i can step out. and step up.
ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE~~
haha.. that's just so random..
i gotta conquer! and i WILL. sigh.. hahaha.. how anti-climax this sigh is.. LOL. it kinda doesnt help that much when ppl dun want to reply.. o.O *shrugs* gives me the feeling that, well.. it dont matter at all.. i know i know.. dun think that way.. but how can i when that's what it seems?? r you even wanting to listen?? r u even wanting to make time.. what am i thinking now? -- "just cut the crap! just keep your mouth shut. it'll do everyone the favour.." that's just not right.. stop "but God.."-ing.. sheesh..
24/7?? unlikely eh? LOL.
OH! i've learnt to fall in love with my guitar again.. it helps when your guitar is your "husband".. haha.. or "boyfriend".. whichever.. work with it.. not against it.. it applies to almost everything. =) learn to flow~
COMMUNICATION. <----- that is a really really really BIG word. believe it or not.. well, no prizes to those who already realise... hahah.. COMMUNICATION = LISTENING+TALKING+UNDERSTANDING. the 5 lvls.. and i'm stuck at lvl 3.. it's just like, ONE wrong move, you trip the sensors and all the barricades come crashing down just in a blink of an eye.. i'm serious.. the brain and heart works that fast.. haha.. and that's science for you. kinda reminds me of those spy movies.. just one slip up, you come in contact with the red/green sensors that's strewn all over.. BOOM! WHAM~! lol.. the metal bars lock the windows, the door shuts tight, doubled with extra grills and ultra thick things to either keep the person in or out.. whichever. it's a barrier no doubt. (whichever way you look at it) wad an extraordinary defence mechanism.. the thing is, you try to open up? it takes a seriously loooong time...... okies.. maybe not that long.. but there's just this tendency to not want to?? so u keep the harzard in and the perpetrator out. EEK.
i wish.. i pray.. i hope.. that i can step out. and step up.
Saturday, September 16, 2006
wad a great annoyance.. i hate it when it happens.. ask me if u wanna know.. lol.. maybe i'll tell.. it's no big actually.. i just dun like it.. hate's prolly too strong a word.. =) learning to be cool with it.. expectations management!! haha~~
hmm.. a couple of songs that i'm sorta hooked on..
"Shen Bian" (wad a fairytale.. lol.)
"One More Moment"(everyone should listen to this)
"Knocking on Heaven's Door"(touching)
"God Blessed the Broken Road"(sweet)
this is kinda random.. i caught a cold.. i think. lol..
smiles galore admist the mayhem~ haha... thank You for a great day =)
thank you dear for putting a smile on my face, a great start =)
thank you also for making that smile wider! =D haha..
find joy in the simplest things.. cos that's where it's true =)
lunched with my parents.. yep. i eat alrite.. and it's not that much of a miracle.. lol.. it was cool=)
(do i sound misleading?? haha.. just dun think so much... =) )
where has it gone??? =\
hmm.. a couple of songs that i'm sorta hooked on..
"Shen Bian" (wad a fairytale.. lol.)
"One More Moment"(everyone should listen to this)
"Knocking on Heaven's Door"(touching)
"God Blessed the Broken Road"(sweet)
this is kinda random.. i caught a cold.. i think. lol..
smiles galore admist the mayhem~ haha... thank You for a great day =)
thank you dear for putting a smile on my face, a great start =)
thank you also for making that smile wider! =D haha..
find joy in the simplest things.. cos that's where it's true =)
lunched with my parents.. yep. i eat alrite.. and it's not that much of a miracle.. lol.. it was cool=)
(do i sound misleading?? haha.. just dun think so much... =) )
where has it gone??? =\
thankful.. that's wad i am. =) hehe..
there's just so much and so many people to be thankful for.. even though sumtimes, things dun work the way i want them to, people dun react the way i wish they would.. makes life interesting doesnt it? haha.. =p
thru the past wk, really thankful for my spasticated darling! HAHA.. yea man.. i think he'll flip if he sees this.. LOL. but seriously, (when am i not?) thank you! =) all the crapping and nonsensical sessions has helped me remain quite sane.. haha.. oxymoronic.. lol.. all the "capitalised" convos.. haha.. fun! =) k.. i'm starting to sound rather insane at the moment.. =x at least he is one who actually replies, be it sms or msn.. lol.. you have no idea how ur nonsensical nonsense can actually keep one's spirit up.. =) glad to have known him.. and his "secrets".. HAHA.. wadever~
most imptly, i thank God for him and everything. =)
church
cell
family
ppl i know, who have really impacted my life
ppl ard me
++.....
there's so much more.. =)
things dun matter as much as relationships.. even though some may be disappointing and whatever, i like the feeling of getting to know someone. really appreciate the ppl that i know. even though i may not say it outwardly, i just do. =)
my bio clock's haywire already.. lol.. oops. lovely.. =x and, i'm getting all ____ again. hahaha.. >_< i have a feeling i can very much do without my cellphone.. haha.. sumtimes, it feels like it doesnt make much of a difference. but still, it's gd to have it at times.. okies.. that's kinda random.. well, not exactly... i'm kinda thinking of sumthing relative to that in my head.. =x
3 more papers to go.. chem n geog mcqs and emath paper 1.. *phew* haha.. the first wk's ALWAYS a killer for the bio-chem peeps.. going practically insane with the 2 papers everyday, for 5 days.. memory stuff totally back to back kinda thing.. i'm even sure if it's a gd thing.. lol. although we'll be the envy of the others the nxt wk.. in fact, only my class and a few frm other other 2 will be having a more relaxed wk.. some still have history.. i think i've kinda developed an immune system to this.. and coupled with God's grace and peace of cos..=) this past wk seemed like an instant.. *zap!* it's gone..
the song "one more moment" keeps playing in my mind.. the story behind it has reminded me of things that i had once left behind.. i chose to den.. no point dwelling on it even though it's a fact.. i can only pray and hope.
there's just so much and so many people to be thankful for.. even though sumtimes, things dun work the way i want them to, people dun react the way i wish they would.. makes life interesting doesnt it? haha.. =p
thru the past wk, really thankful for my spasticated darling! HAHA.. yea man.. i think he'll flip if he sees this.. LOL. but seriously, (when am i not?) thank you! =) all the crapping and nonsensical sessions has helped me remain quite sane.. haha.. oxymoronic.. lol.. all the "capitalised" convos.. haha.. fun! =) k.. i'm starting to sound rather insane at the moment.. =x at least he is one who actually replies, be it sms or msn.. lol.. you have no idea how ur nonsensical nonsense can actually keep one's spirit up.. =) glad to have known him.. and his "secrets".. HAHA.. wadever~
most imptly, i thank God for him and everything. =)
church
cell
family
ppl i know, who have really impacted my life
ppl ard me
++.....
there's so much more.. =)
things dun matter as much as relationships.. even though some may be disappointing and whatever, i like the feeling of getting to know someone. really appreciate the ppl that i know. even though i may not say it outwardly, i just do. =)
my bio clock's haywire already.. lol.. oops. lovely.. =x and, i'm getting all ____ again. hahaha.. >_< i have a feeling i can very much do without my cellphone.. haha.. sumtimes, it feels like it doesnt make much of a difference. but still, it's gd to have it at times.. okies.. that's kinda random.. well, not exactly... i'm kinda thinking of sumthing relative to that in my head.. =x
3 more papers to go.. chem n geog mcqs and emath paper 1.. *phew* haha.. the first wk's ALWAYS a killer for the bio-chem peeps.. going practically insane with the 2 papers everyday, for 5 days.. memory stuff totally back to back kinda thing.. i'm even sure if it's a gd thing.. lol. although we'll be the envy of the others the nxt wk.. in fact, only my class and a few frm other other 2 will be having a more relaxed wk.. some still have history.. i think i've kinda developed an immune system to this.. and coupled with God's grace and peace of cos..=) this past wk seemed like an instant.. *zap!* it's gone..
the song "one more moment" keeps playing in my mind.. the story behind it has reminded me of things that i had once left behind.. i chose to den.. no point dwelling on it even though it's a fact.. i can only pray and hope.
Thursday, September 14, 2006
A SECOND CHANCE
Not many second chances exist in the world today. Just ask the kid who didn’t make the little league team or the fellow who got the pink slip or the mother of three who got dumped for a “pretty little thing.”
Not many second chances. Nowadays it’s more like, “It’s now or never.” “Around here we don’t tolerate incompetence.” “Gotta get tough to get along.” “Not much room at the top.” “Three strikes and you’re out.” “It’s a dog-eat-dog world!”
Jesus…would say. “Then don’t live with the dogs.” That makes sense doesn’t it? Why let a bunch of other failures tell you how much of a failure you are?...
It’s not every day that you find someone who will give you a second chance—much less someone who will give you a second chance every day. But in Jesus, you find both.
-maxlucado-
Not many second chances exist in the world today. Just ask the kid who didn’t make the little league team or the fellow who got the pink slip or the mother of three who got dumped for a “pretty little thing.”
Not many second chances. Nowadays it’s more like, “It’s now or never.” “Around here we don’t tolerate incompetence.” “Gotta get tough to get along.” “Not much room at the top.” “Three strikes and you’re out.” “It’s a dog-eat-dog world!”
Jesus…would say. “Then don’t live with the dogs.” That makes sense doesn’t it? Why let a bunch of other failures tell you how much of a failure you are?...
It’s not every day that you find someone who will give you a second chance—much less someone who will give you a second chance every day. But in Jesus, you find both.
-maxlucado-
Monday, September 11, 2006
i'm glad my family likes the food that i cook.. =) even my brother who normally doesnt eat the tomato sauce with pasta/noodles.. whichever.. ate what i cooked that day.. my mum was just asking me on saturday as i accompanied her to grocery shopping.. how i cooked the pasta sauce and stuff, cos she liked it a lot.. *grins* haha! =x well, everything was from scratch and the ingredients were very simple actually.. a bit of this and a bit of that.. and it turns out ok =) my secret recipe! hahaha.. =p
i guess life's like that.. i remember receiving an email.. entitled, "God's cake" if i remember correctly. lol.. flour on it's own is disgusting.. eggs, raw and slimey.. pure sugar, too sweet.. (plus sumthings else.. sry.. i dun bake.. lol) BUT, if u mix them together.. add a little heat.. give it a little time.. voila! nice nice cake! haha.. that what we all go through.. just that, being in the picture, many a times that we dun see the big picture. so, until it is done, we wont exactly see it.. but we can envision it =)
just like my essay on "Marriage".. "i'm red and he is yellow.. 2 colours that are a stark contrast, and there seem no possibility of fusion at all at first glance.. however, with a brush of love, mixed with giving, receiving and forgiveness, each quality taking its turn. On the canvas, a little bit of red here, a little yellow there. Time and time again, each taking one's turn in the position of the colours. Little details coloured in, the artist's face is up close, with his nose right up to the canvas. Now, brush down.. take a step back. The greatest picture of a magnificent sunset. The once distinct individuals at the edge of the canvas now blend to be the centrepiece of the masterpiece. Patience of blue and efforts of white lay in the background, exuding the vibrant union of red and yellow-orange." RED and YELLOW never knew that they could coexist.. but, someone could =) the artist! the creator. this doesnt just apply to marriage.. feel that it's the same for any relationship..
think about it.
i guess life's like that.. i remember receiving an email.. entitled, "God's cake" if i remember correctly. lol.. flour on it's own is disgusting.. eggs, raw and slimey.. pure sugar, too sweet.. (plus sumthings else.. sry.. i dun bake.. lol) BUT, if u mix them together.. add a little heat.. give it a little time.. voila! nice nice cake! haha.. that what we all go through.. just that, being in the picture, many a times that we dun see the big picture. so, until it is done, we wont exactly see it.. but we can envision it =)
just like my essay on "Marriage".. "i'm red and he is yellow.. 2 colours that are a stark contrast, and there seem no possibility of fusion at all at first glance.. however, with a brush of love, mixed with giving, receiving and forgiveness, each quality taking its turn. On the canvas, a little bit of red here, a little yellow there. Time and time again, each taking one's turn in the position of the colours. Little details coloured in, the artist's face is up close, with his nose right up to the canvas. Now, brush down.. take a step back. The greatest picture of a magnificent sunset. The once distinct individuals at the edge of the canvas now blend to be the centrepiece of the masterpiece. Patience of blue and efforts of white lay in the background, exuding the vibrant union of red and yellow-orange." RED and YELLOW never knew that they could coexist.. but, someone could =) the artist! the creator. this doesnt just apply to marriage.. feel that it's the same for any relationship..
think about it.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
i need to talk. although i've felt like i've been talking so much recently(or even too much), there just this need to talk.
Jesus suffered for you.
Jesus suffered for me.
He laid down his life for us.
did u know that?
did u thank Him for that?
reality hit. and real hard too. not that i din know.. but, it came almost as a brand new revelation. listening to "This Is Your Saviour", all the whipping in the background.. the cries.. He was innocent.
"sent to save the fallen world to bear all our shame.."
"this is your saviour, pure love of heaven..."
"love silently endure.."
"for the broken hearted.. for you and me.."
my heart simply broke. just like that. i'm not that strong on my own.. i'm not. no one is, in actual fact. that's the truth. Someone actually died for you and me.. a life that need not be lost if it weren't for love. that's right.. it hurts to love. the sacrifice. in this case, a life. God wouldnt have sent his son if He didnt love. Someone who's willing to look beyond what you can do, the words that you say..
there were times that you may be lost.. He was there.
your heart may have been shattered.. He was there.
you were disappointed.. He was there.
you were hurt
you were upset
you were let down
you felt so empty
you felt like everything's so wrong.. He was there.
He's looking on.. following you everywhere you went.. in different times, He held different things in His hands. sumtimes, a handkerchief.. to dry ur tears. sumtimes, a torchlight.. to shine a way for you when all seems so bleak and dark. sumtimes, His hands are empty but His arms are wide open for you. He was always there, He always is and He always will be.
the thing is, will you let Him do what He wants to do and can do? will you let Him heal you? comfort you? guide you? lead you? will you let Him into your heart? into that emptiness inside of you to fill it? will you?
there's just so much more..
amandalim7@gmail.com
Jesus suffered for me.
He laid down his life for us.
did u know that?
did u thank Him for that?
reality hit. and real hard too. not that i din know.. but, it came almost as a brand new revelation. listening to "This Is Your Saviour", all the whipping in the background.. the cries.. He was innocent.
"sent to save the fallen world to bear all our shame.."
"this is your saviour, pure love of heaven..."
"love silently endure.."
"for the broken hearted.. for you and me.."
my heart simply broke. just like that. i'm not that strong on my own.. i'm not. no one is, in actual fact. that's the truth. Someone actually died for you and me.. a life that need not be lost if it weren't for love. that's right.. it hurts to love. the sacrifice. in this case, a life. God wouldnt have sent his son if He didnt love. Someone who's willing to look beyond what you can do, the words that you say..
there were times that you may be lost.. He was there.
your heart may have been shattered.. He was there.
you were disappointed.. He was there.
you were hurt
you were upset
you were let down
you felt so empty
you felt like everything's so wrong.. He was there.
He's looking on.. following you everywhere you went.. in different times, He held different things in His hands. sumtimes, a handkerchief.. to dry ur tears. sumtimes, a torchlight.. to shine a way for you when all seems so bleak and dark. sumtimes, His hands are empty but His arms are wide open for you. He was always there, He always is and He always will be.
the thing is, will you let Him do what He wants to do and can do? will you let Him heal you? comfort you? guide you? lead you? will you let Him into your heart? into that emptiness inside of you to fill it? will you?
there's just so much more..
amandalim7@gmail.com
Friday, September 08, 2006
i was scared.. i just get this really strong and negative feeling.. *shrugs*
i still am.. but it's less now..
thank God for:
always being there =)
putting great people in my life.
everyone and everything.
thanks to my dear "suaning" mate... like i said, u cheered me up =)
thanks to jang, the long hug was sumthing that i needed =)
the temptation of just pushing stuff to do aside.. *phew* haha.. i'm sure it's clear to everyone.. lol.
i like talks.
i like silence.
the irony of life.
how oxymoronic.
the existence.
positive and negative.
just to create a balance?
i wonder.
which vitamin does it take to make a gd friend? : B1 (be one yourself)
i still am.. but it's less now..
thank God for:
always being there =)
putting great people in my life.
everyone and everything.
thanks to my dear "suaning" mate... like i said, u cheered me up =)
thanks to jang, the long hug was sumthing that i needed =)
the temptation of just pushing stuff to do aside.. *phew* haha.. i'm sure it's clear to everyone.. lol.
Juxtaposition
i like talks.
i like silence.
the irony of life.
how oxymoronic.
the existence.
positive and negative.
just to create a balance?
i wonder.
which vitamin does it take to make a gd friend? : B1 (be one yourself)
Thursday, September 07, 2006
The Long Way
Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”
John 14:6
Jesus speaks of Himself as the way. In Acts the disciples were referred to as “the Way.” Christian life itself is a long journey, a long road. This road winds its way through life. Sometimes it passes through green pastures, sometimes through dry plains and deserts. Sometimes it leads over high and steep mountains or through narrow mountain passes. Sometimes it divides. Sometimes it runs parallel to another road.
Sometimes it is difficult to know which road is the right one. There are so many choices, and the possibility to go astray always exists. Sometimes the road becomes narrow and no one seems to walk on it. Sometimes the road is wide and filled with happy travelers. Sometimes the road almost disappears, like an overgrown path in a remote forest. Sometimes the slope is so steep that the only way to ascend is by climbing from one overhang to the next. Sometimes the scenery is so breathtaking it seems unjustifiable to go on. Sometimes it is so miserable we are tempted to turn back. Sometimes the road encourages us to move ahead. Sometimes it is uninviting and hostile.
The opinions and attitudes of fellow travelers can make the journey either pleasant and refreshing or depressing and aimless. Most of all, it seems the road just keeps getting longer. In the beginning, when motivation abounded, it did not appear so long. But toward the end, the road seems so rough and demanding that just putting one foot in front of the other is enormously draining. Next to the road are countless rest stops from where boisterous and superficial people idly watch and ponder why you travel on such a difficult road. But something causes you to carry on.
What is the name of the road? Jesus! Where does it lead? Home! Home to heaven. And suddenly that road, which seemed so long, becomes so short. And then the journey is over.
- Ulf Ekman
God in heaven, help me to walk the whole distance, all the way home. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
i've really been blessed =) it's great walking with God, reading the daily devotionals.. i'm sure that all of us know that once we start counting our blessings instead of looking for wad we dun have, we'll be happier.
was walking ard my house when i was suddenly reminded of some songs by Westlife. it just came suddenly.. and, it brought back pleasant memories =) lol. we were in pri 3 then.. sitting near the teacher's desk, my friend and i.. ruicheng and i would sing/hum songs from the Westlife album or Michael Learns To Rock.. we'd take turns guessing what the titles were.. lol. those were the days.. =) i kinda miss them.. and i even had a crush on him! haha.. a very sweet guy. eventually helped him to chase my good fren.. lol. haven seen him in long while.. kinda miss him.. wonder what's he like now.. hmm, he aint that faraway or anything.. just that, after yrs of not talking to him, just those hi-bye moments.. it just seems kinda awkward. i was thinking of calling him up.. but, what am i gonna say?? lol.. miss his funny antics, spastic facial expressions, the way he laughs and lame jokes (clinton kinda reminds me of him).. all the teasing, reading each other's journal, training together, being there for each other, projects and loads of other stuff.. come to think of it, i think he's the closest guy fren that i've had.. a bit sad that now we dun even talk.. i miss my pri sch days all of a sudden.. and nostalgia sets in.. lol. all the embarrassing moments and things like that (and i still get teased even now).. and to think i even dreamt that i was sharing with jtky some of it.. haha.. =p hope that this yr end's bball camp would be a sort of gathering as well?
hopefully.=)
Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”
John 14:6
Jesus speaks of Himself as the way. In Acts the disciples were referred to as “the Way.” Christian life itself is a long journey, a long road. This road winds its way through life. Sometimes it passes through green pastures, sometimes through dry plains and deserts. Sometimes it leads over high and steep mountains or through narrow mountain passes. Sometimes it divides. Sometimes it runs parallel to another road.
Sometimes it is difficult to know which road is the right one. There are so many choices, and the possibility to go astray always exists. Sometimes the road becomes narrow and no one seems to walk on it. Sometimes the road is wide and filled with happy travelers. Sometimes the road almost disappears, like an overgrown path in a remote forest. Sometimes the slope is so steep that the only way to ascend is by climbing from one overhang to the next. Sometimes the scenery is so breathtaking it seems unjustifiable to go on. Sometimes it is so miserable we are tempted to turn back. Sometimes the road encourages us to move ahead. Sometimes it is uninviting and hostile.
The opinions and attitudes of fellow travelers can make the journey either pleasant and refreshing or depressing and aimless. Most of all, it seems the road just keeps getting longer. In the beginning, when motivation abounded, it did not appear so long. But toward the end, the road seems so rough and demanding that just putting one foot in front of the other is enormously draining. Next to the road are countless rest stops from where boisterous and superficial people idly watch and ponder why you travel on such a difficult road. But something causes you to carry on.
What is the name of the road? Jesus! Where does it lead? Home! Home to heaven. And suddenly that road, which seemed so long, becomes so short. And then the journey is over.
- Ulf Ekman
God in heaven, help me to walk the whole distance, all the way home. In Jesus’ name. Amen.
i've really been blessed =) it's great walking with God, reading the daily devotionals.. i'm sure that all of us know that once we start counting our blessings instead of looking for wad we dun have, we'll be happier.
was walking ard my house when i was suddenly reminded of some songs by Westlife. it just came suddenly.. and, it brought back pleasant memories =) lol. we were in pri 3 then.. sitting near the teacher's desk, my friend and i.. ruicheng and i would sing/hum songs from the Westlife album or Michael Learns To Rock.. we'd take turns guessing what the titles were.. lol. those were the days.. =) i kinda miss them.. and i even had a crush on him! haha.. a very sweet guy. eventually helped him to chase my good fren.. lol. haven seen him in long while.. kinda miss him.. wonder what's he like now.. hmm, he aint that faraway or anything.. just that, after yrs of not talking to him, just those hi-bye moments.. it just seems kinda awkward. i was thinking of calling him up.. but, what am i gonna say?? lol.. miss his funny antics, spastic facial expressions, the way he laughs and lame jokes (clinton kinda reminds me of him).. all the teasing, reading each other's journal, training together, being there for each other, projects and loads of other stuff.. come to think of it, i think he's the closest guy fren that i've had.. a bit sad that now we dun even talk.. i miss my pri sch days all of a sudden.. and nostalgia sets in.. lol. all the embarrassing moments and things like that (and i still get teased even now).. and to think i even dreamt that i was sharing with jtky some of it.. haha.. =p hope that this yr end's bball camp would be a sort of gathering as well?
hopefully.=)
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
i've got a bleeding finger and peeling hands.. argh. wad's going on?? and that's not cos of bowling with my cousins.. btw, after such a long time, i still managed to keep the above 100 score. yes, i know i should be studying.. but how can i when the phone calls asking me to bowl keep coming incessantly.. sigh. how i wish. it was a quickie anyway, so it was rather alrite i guess.. so yep, gonna mug until dawn, again. honestly, i sense no urgency.. but nevertheless, there is no room for complacency.
i was just reading someone's blog.. a leader's as a matter of fact.. hmm, i'm actually not sure if her members do actually read her blog though.. but, i'm glad to say that she's a very open n truthful person. honest about her thoughts and feelings.. leaders have down times.. sure. it is when i know and read of somethings that she briefly mentions she's going thru and seeing how she lives her life that encourages me. i agree to a certain extent that, sumthings are best left unsaid to the ppl that you are leading.. there are times for that.. of cos, agreeing only to a certain extent, i have my views on this.. i just feel that, "hey! just share! just say it =)" haha.. =p
leaders need encouragements too.. most of the time, you never know when your leader is going thru tough times.. that's always the case in fact. unless, there are really sumtimes when one can just sense that sumthing's going on.. especially by a person's actions and expressions.. although, i must say that expressions aint a very gd thing to base judgement on. lol. i presume that sumtimes, one can just sense it. that's right, just sense it. it's unexplainable.. of cos, the Spirit inside can also discern.
o well, i guess this is those kinda of things that are "just like that". lol. stumble? well, if one's foundation's built properly, wad do u think? in fact, i think that the more one shares the more one gets built up... now where's the stumbling in that?? lol.. it can be that simple.
i was just reading someone's blog.. a leader's as a matter of fact.. hmm, i'm actually not sure if her members do actually read her blog though.. but, i'm glad to say that she's a very open n truthful person. honest about her thoughts and feelings.. leaders have down times.. sure. it is when i know and read of somethings that she briefly mentions she's going thru and seeing how she lives her life that encourages me. i agree to a certain extent that, sumthings are best left unsaid to the ppl that you are leading.. there are times for that.. of cos, agreeing only to a certain extent, i have my views on this.. i just feel that, "hey! just share! just say it =)" haha.. =p
leaders need encouragements too.. most of the time, you never know when your leader is going thru tough times.. that's always the case in fact. unless, there are really sumtimes when one can just sense that sumthing's going on.. especially by a person's actions and expressions.. although, i must say that expressions aint a very gd thing to base judgement on. lol. i presume that sumtimes, one can just sense it. that's right, just sense it. it's unexplainable.. of cos, the Spirit inside can also discern.
o well, i guess this is those kinda of things that are "just like that". lol. stumble? well, if one's foundation's built properly, wad do u think? in fact, i think that the more one shares the more one gets built up... now where's the stumbling in that?? lol.. it can be that simple.
Monday, September 04, 2006
ever stopped and wondered how u met/come to know of the people that u know today? the "know" i'm talking about is not just the "hi-bye"kinda relationship.. i was thinking about that. looking back, it some how seems that certain relationships that i have with the pple around me are indeed quite impossible.. i mean, u may know of his/her existence but, just not to the point of knowing the person personally.. o.O i find it a miracle. the ppl that i've come across in my life until now, nothing's a coincidence.. though, experiences with everyone may not be as pleasant everytime, it's not at all a coincidence.
bad experiences are there to help you to grow.
good experiences makes your life a tad sweeter.
i'm thankful for the ppl that i know.. again, there are some that may pull you down at times but, these are the times where you learn to stand again and again and again. but i'm glad to say that, those who build you up are more than those who bring you down.. unless u still choose to stay with those who purposely bring you down.. i'm thinking of a few ppl now.. i really wonder how i got to know them.. lol. rather interesting i find.. some just really seem quite impossible.
another thing i'm thankful for.. 2 ppl in my life.. the first being my "suaning" mate and second, a confidant that i can just about sharing anything with.. share freely and comfortably.. i know i shouldnt be "suaning" ppl.. but when we do it, it's kinda fun.. just for laughs =) i must admit that some of the "suaning" sumtimes brightens up my day.. how that person likes to act cute, it makes me laugh.. lol. so, if u are reading this, thanks a million my dear! =) and, i shall say it here for once that, YOU ROCK and YOU ARE CUTE! hahaha.. =p the second person doesnt read my blog.. i think.. lol. but nevertheless, thank you! =)
bad experiences are there to help you to grow.
good experiences makes your life a tad sweeter.
i'm thankful for the ppl that i know.. again, there are some that may pull you down at times but, these are the times where you learn to stand again and again and again. but i'm glad to say that, those who build you up are more than those who bring you down.. unless u still choose to stay with those who purposely bring you down.. i'm thinking of a few ppl now.. i really wonder how i got to know them.. lol. rather interesting i find.. some just really seem quite impossible.
another thing i'm thankful for.. 2 ppl in my life.. the first being my "suaning" mate and second, a confidant that i can just about sharing anything with.. share freely and comfortably.. i know i shouldnt be "suaning" ppl.. but when we do it, it's kinda fun.. just for laughs =) i must admit that some of the "suaning" sumtimes brightens up my day.. how that person likes to act cute, it makes me laugh.. lol. so, if u are reading this, thanks a million my dear! =) and, i shall say it here for once that, YOU ROCK and YOU ARE CUTE! hahaha.. =p the second person doesnt read my blog.. i think.. lol. but nevertheless, thank you! =)
Sunday, September 03, 2006
decided not to delete the previous entry... so, jtky... u'r lucky? lol..
well well well... TODAY was a GREAT day.. haha.. sense the sarcasm? lol.. but none the less, despite all the whatever (my beloved cgms should know what i'm talking about), i really enjoyed today =) thanks for the encouragements too! i'll work harder!! it's indeed a privilege to serve, and i'll strive to do it with excellence =) and, i'll be glad to be a source, wherever and whenever..
you guys really made my day i tell you.. although only a handful read my blog. anyways, =D haha.. yea man.. another eventful day with the ushers as i made my way to bible study. it felt kinda different.. lol. guess i wasnt quite used to it, cos norm, it's one on one.. it's been like that with my previous 5 bs teachers.. lol. but, changes are gd =) new experience.
my misadventures with cars.. haha! i can write a story bout it! lol.. okies.. that's a tad too colourful.. =p i seem to have this tendency to be knocked down by cars.. (nearly that is) thank God for protection.. everyday's a real blessing.. being able to breathe, to speak with God... it's awesome =) jtky would shake her head at the "cars" part.. lol.. a SHOUTOUT to all!! treasure the pple around you everyday! u never know what the future holds.. really blessed by MK and Ee Yang.. thanks a lot =) i was kinda lost for words man.. lol. and YES! i finally got my ice cream! hahaha.. =D
u know, despite ytd's disgusting madness... i'm happy =) it's real joy! thank God for it.. and today, could really see how sarca and well... ____ "someone" can get.. LOL. but, it was fun! haha.. after BK, ed, jw, mk, jos and i went to the IT fair.. it was super crowded! and well, it was a real God given appointment that i was able to meet her.. boy does God work it ways that one can never imagine.. =) a long hug, a quick chat and we were off on separate ways yet again.. lol.
trained down to bedok with jos.. had some dessert there.. and den Ee Yang picked us up to go to Werner's.. Ee Yang's a real blessing man.. =) never see him complaining.. met up with my family for dinner at Werner's.. okies.. at some point, it was kinda cartoon.. but, o wells! HAHAHA.. (i told you today was a great happy day! =p) yep yep. it was great =) the food was great and well, it was a real happy dinner =) i'm not sure if they felt it.. but i supposed that they did.. thank God for everything. this true joy that, could never exist without Him..
well well well... TODAY was a GREAT day.. haha.. sense the sarcasm? lol.. but none the less, despite all the whatever (my beloved cgms should know what i'm talking about), i really enjoyed today =) thanks for the encouragements too! i'll work harder!! it's indeed a privilege to serve, and i'll strive to do it with excellence =) and, i'll be glad to be a source, wherever and whenever..
you guys really made my day i tell you.. although only a handful read my blog. anyways, =D haha.. yea man.. another eventful day with the ushers as i made my way to bible study. it felt kinda different.. lol. guess i wasnt quite used to it, cos norm, it's one on one.. it's been like that with my previous 5 bs teachers.. lol. but, changes are gd =) new experience.
my misadventures with cars.. haha! i can write a story bout it! lol.. okies.. that's a tad too colourful.. =p i seem to have this tendency to be knocked down by cars.. (nearly that is) thank God for protection.. everyday's a real blessing.. being able to breathe, to speak with God... it's awesome =) jtky would shake her head at the "cars" part.. lol.. a SHOUTOUT to all!! treasure the pple around you everyday! u never know what the future holds.. really blessed by MK and Ee Yang.. thanks a lot =) i was kinda lost for words man.. lol. and YES! i finally got my ice cream! hahaha.. =D
u know, despite ytd's disgusting madness... i'm happy =) it's real joy! thank God for it.. and today, could really see how sarca and well... ____ "someone" can get.. LOL. but, it was fun! haha.. after BK, ed, jw, mk, jos and i went to the IT fair.. it was super crowded! and well, it was a real God given appointment that i was able to meet her.. boy does God work it ways that one can never imagine.. =) a long hug, a quick chat and we were off on separate ways yet again.. lol.
trained down to bedok with jos.. had some dessert there.. and den Ee Yang picked us up to go to Werner's.. Ee Yang's a real blessing man.. =) never see him complaining.. met up with my family for dinner at Werner's.. okies.. at some point, it was kinda cartoon.. but, o wells! HAHAHA.. (i told you today was a great happy day! =p) yep yep. it was great =) the food was great and well, it was a real happy dinner =) i'm not sure if they felt it.. but i supposed that they did.. thank God for everything. this true joy that, could never exist without Him..
lets see.. the first and worst sleepless night in recent times.. lol. went to bed at about 2am.. it's now 3.25am.. time ticking away.. dun ask me why i'm not sleeping.. i know no answer to that.
received a msg at 3am. not that i was awoken by it.. i just got up and felt compelled to read it.. disappointing. honestly, that disappointment was kinda already in my mind before i saw the msg. and i think, "not again.." that's rite.. it aint the first.. of cos, it'll never be the last. i know it's wrong to have that mentality in the first place.. but somehow, experience has told me to be more than expecting.. lol. sigh.. time and time again.. o wells, i cant do nothing much bout it.. wad can i say other than "oh okies.."? i dun know.. honestly, i duno.. i dun even know what to feel at all.. sad, a little.. numbed? kinda a whole lot.. "i'm used to it already." aint very gd at hiding my disappointment eh? also, dun hang the words "i'll make it up to you" by the edge of ur mouth.. when will that day ever come??
try to not say things that u dun really mean... mean what you say.. it tells a lot about one's character.. it gives me the feeling that, it dun mean anything to you at all. naive. yes.
many a times, we are forced to break our promises.. but dun make it feel like it's all the time.. twice in one day, in fact thrice, disappointment.. not that i cant take it.. it just saddens me. i can understand if it's all of a sudden that sumthing crops up.. but this.. sigh. mayb i should just learn to manage my expectations.. although, to be honest, i think it's very low already...
ppl, be a person who is true to his/her word. u never know what others expect of you. of cos, not saying that u live for ppl's expectations.. but, it speaks a lot about you, how trustworthy you actually are.. when u make promises, try as much as possible to stick to them.. of cos, there are and there will be times when u have to fail someone... but, minimise that. it can be done. also, think before u make any promises. dun ever think that, "i'm so familiar with this person, he/she wont mind.." actually, it matters all the more.
a done deal.
received a msg at 3am. not that i was awoken by it.. i just got up and felt compelled to read it.. disappointing. honestly, that disappointment was kinda already in my mind before i saw the msg. and i think, "not again.." that's rite.. it aint the first.. of cos, it'll never be the last. i know it's wrong to have that mentality in the first place.. but somehow, experience has told me to be more than expecting.. lol. sigh.. time and time again.. o wells, i cant do nothing much bout it.. wad can i say other than "oh okies.."? i dun know.. honestly, i duno.. i dun even know what to feel at all.. sad, a little.. numbed? kinda a whole lot.. "i'm used to it already." aint very gd at hiding my disappointment eh? also, dun hang the words "i'll make it up to you" by the edge of ur mouth.. when will that day ever come??
try to not say things that u dun really mean... mean what you say.. it tells a lot about one's character.. it gives me the feeling that, it dun mean anything to you at all. naive. yes.
many a times, we are forced to break our promises.. but dun make it feel like it's all the time.. twice in one day, in fact thrice, disappointment.. not that i cant take it.. it just saddens me. i can understand if it's all of a sudden that sumthing crops up.. but this.. sigh. mayb i should just learn to manage my expectations.. although, to be honest, i think it's very low already...
ppl, be a person who is true to his/her word. u never know what others expect of you. of cos, not saying that u live for ppl's expectations.. but, it speaks a lot about you, how trustworthy you actually are.. when u make promises, try as much as possible to stick to them.. of cos, there are and there will be times when u have to fail someone... but, minimise that. it can be done. also, think before u make any promises. dun ever think that, "i'm so familiar with this person, he/she wont mind.." actually, it matters all the more.
a done deal.
Saturday, September 02, 2006
i'm sad, i feel real bad.. but, i'll work on it. oh yes.
i took notice of this column in the new paper recently.. it's not really a column, but the stuffs there's gd. aside the jokes, the life stuff's awesome. revelatory kinda thing. exam times get to pple.. first hand experience.. lol. o wells, nothing much one can actually do bout it.. just, *shrugs* live thru it. even i was caught off guard.. kinda.
talk about sharing joys and sorrows.. lol.
there was sumthing impt on my mind.. i wanted to blog bout it.. but.. STM.
o well.. nearly got knocked down by a car again.. how lovely. thank God for protection.. it was simply too close... i couldnt and didnt see it.. just one step. half a step in fact.. and boy was the car fast... phew.
Ps 29, mainly verses 3 and 4..--the voice of the Lord is over the waters; The God of glory thunders; The Lord is over many waters. The voice of the Lord is powerful; The voice of the Lord is full of majesty.
if it's said that the voice of God is so mighty, what more the Spirit that lives in us! it is indeed true, John 5:4--For whatever is born of God overcomes the world.. with the Holy Spirit living inside of us, we are already victorious! it is also to remind us that we must learn to take heed, the voice of God. just imagine, God speaking to us in a still small voice most of the time, and yet it is so powerful and majestic! and if, the voice that comes from the Spirit is so powerful and authoritative, again, what more is the Spirit from which it came from, living inside of us! i just feel that God wants to remind us that we are indeed victorious in Christ Jesus and that we have the authority to do His will. we all know that actions speak louder than words.. imagine again, a still small voice that is simply so powerful... coming from a Spirit inside of us.. if we actually put into action what we are told, using our hands.. our mind.. our body.. whichever.. isnt it even more powerful?
it's nothing new.. but still, blessed by it. =)
i took notice of this column in the new paper recently.. it's not really a column, but the stuffs there's gd. aside the jokes, the life stuff's awesome. revelatory kinda thing. exam times get to pple.. first hand experience.. lol. o wells, nothing much one can actually do bout it.. just, *shrugs* live thru it. even i was caught off guard.. kinda.
talk about sharing joys and sorrows.. lol.
there was sumthing impt on my mind.. i wanted to blog bout it.. but.. STM.
o well.. nearly got knocked down by a car again.. how lovely. thank God for protection.. it was simply too close... i couldnt and didnt see it.. just one step. half a step in fact.. and boy was the car fast... phew.
Ps 29, mainly verses 3 and 4..--the voice of the Lord is over the waters; The God of glory thunders; The Lord is over many waters. The voice of the Lord is powerful; The voice of the Lord is full of majesty.
if it's said that the voice of God is so mighty, what more the Spirit that lives in us! it is indeed true, John 5:4--For whatever is born of God overcomes the world.. with the Holy Spirit living inside of us, we are already victorious! it is also to remind us that we must learn to take heed, the voice of God. just imagine, God speaking to us in a still small voice most of the time, and yet it is so powerful and majestic! and if, the voice that comes from the Spirit is so powerful and authoritative, again, what more is the Spirit from which it came from, living inside of us! i just feel that God wants to remind us that we are indeed victorious in Christ Jesus and that we have the authority to do His will. we all know that actions speak louder than words.. imagine again, a still small voice that is simply so powerful... coming from a Spirit inside of us.. if we actually put into action what we are told, using our hands.. our mind.. our body.. whichever.. isnt it even more powerful?
it's nothing new.. but still, blessed by it. =)