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Amanda
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Amanda
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Wednesday, April 29, 2009
this wk's gonna the be the designated slacking wk.
cos aft this, it's gonna be one heck of a semester! LOL
i can only imagine the stuff that needs to be done nxt wk onwards.
expected. it's the last yr alr. FAST.
it's times like these that well, sweep ppl off their feet.
where did all the time btw go?
for me,
it's comprised of many things.
some, i don't wish to have to go thru
some, i hope to remember for the rest of my life
there's a lot of people that i wanna meet up with.
and yes, i'm constantly thinking how they are.
pri sch frens, sec sch frens, ppl frm church..
so many.
i'm sad to say that some relationships just arn't wad they used to be.
it's part of my responsibility to maintain those relationships. and i've failed.
yet sometimes, i really wonder how long can relationships last?
i mean, don't ppl go on to make even more frens? more relationships?
it can be really tiring to maintain or actually, even keep up.
don't be mistaken, i love my frens. i do.
i guess, it's really down to the depth and mutuality.
strangers.
acquantainces.
friends.
good friends.
best friends.
how does one actually know when a relationship has reached the nxt lvl??
i wonder.
on the other hand, i'm really thankful.
even though, i've met ppl that can really just get to me and just can't seem to understand
and yet still have to work with them
at least there's the other to balance them out
otherwise, i really wonder how i'd survive
i'm just glad that,
there are those whom i can connect with beyond the superficial level
some who really understand me and the other way ard as well
i guess it can get scary if u find out that u don't really know a person after some time.
am i making sense??
i just love spending time with him.
i can't explain why.
i just enjoy it. just his company will do.
it's platonic.
cos aft this, it's gonna be one heck of a semester! LOL
i can only imagine the stuff that needs to be done nxt wk onwards.
expected. it's the last yr alr. FAST.
it's times like these that well, sweep ppl off their feet.
where did all the time btw go?
for me,
it's comprised of many things.
some, i don't wish to have to go thru
some, i hope to remember for the rest of my life
there's a lot of people that i wanna meet up with.
and yes, i'm constantly thinking how they are.
pri sch frens, sec sch frens, ppl frm church..
so many.
i'm sad to say that some relationships just arn't wad they used to be.
it's part of my responsibility to maintain those relationships. and i've failed.
yet sometimes, i really wonder how long can relationships last?
i mean, don't ppl go on to make even more frens? more relationships?
it can be really tiring to maintain or actually, even keep up.
don't be mistaken, i love my frens. i do.
i guess, it's really down to the depth and mutuality.
strangers.
acquantainces.
friends.
good friends.
best friends.
how does one actually know when a relationship has reached the nxt lvl??
i wonder.
on the other hand, i'm really thankful.
even though, i've met ppl that can really just get to me and just can't seem to understand
and yet still have to work with them
at least there's the other to balance them out
otherwise, i really wonder how i'd survive
i'm just glad that,
there are those whom i can connect with beyond the superficial level
some who really understand me and the other way ard as well
i guess it can get scary if u find out that u don't really know a person after some time.
am i making sense??
i just love spending time with him.
i can't explain why.
i just enjoy it. just his company will do.
it's platonic.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
KNS. hahaha
it looks like there's sch tmr after all~
doesn't make much sense though.. everything's supposed to start in the 3rd wk
but they pushed it all 2 wks earlier?
so wad if nxt fri's a PH, there isn't lesson scheduled anyway.
super LAST MIN for LAST.
everyone's gotta shelf their plans... =(
it can get quite confusing who's in who's class
or if ppl are taking the same subjects.
haven't gotten used to it yet.
i should really get started on CSAS 4
i've got a feeling abt it.
heh.. we'll see..
on the other hand, i just gotta make time for ppl.
some time since we've met up.. =(
ah well..
whoever's reading this, call me up!
it looks like there's sch tmr after all~
doesn't make much sense though.. everything's supposed to start in the 3rd wk
but they pushed it all 2 wks earlier?
so wad if nxt fri's a PH, there isn't lesson scheduled anyway.
super LAST MIN for LAST.
everyone's gotta shelf their plans... =(
it can get quite confusing who's in who's class
or if ppl are taking the same subjects.
haven't gotten used to it yet.
i should really get started on CSAS 4
i've got a feeling abt it.
heh.. we'll see..
on the other hand, i just gotta make time for ppl.
some time since we've met up.. =(
ah well..
whoever's reading this, call me up!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
back to sch!
aft the first BPT lec, i'm starting to have doubts. LOL
did i choose the wrong elective?
new ppl in class, another round of frens-making.
hope CSAS 4 will be ok..
first wk's still pretty messy
gd thing is, there's no sch tis fri and nxt fri! woo! hahah
it's time to priortise and sort things out before everything starts proper
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there's a kind of relief.
i hope that tis time ard, i've managed to drop it all.
it's past tense now. =)
aft the first BPT lec, i'm starting to have doubts. LOL
did i choose the wrong elective?
new ppl in class, another round of frens-making.
hope CSAS 4 will be ok..
first wk's still pretty messy
gd thing is, there's no sch tis fri and nxt fri! woo! hahah
it's time to priortise and sort things out before everything starts proper
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there's a kind of relief.
i hope that tis time ard, i've managed to drop it all.
it's past tense now. =)
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
should i just drop the bomb and wait to see how u'd react?
hahaha.. tempting.
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a fren asked me what i'd notice first
i just realise that my answer would be: the eyes.
of cos a good first impression and general appearance would appeal
but still, it's actually down to the eyes.
to each his/her own i guess.
just googled "eye quotes"
"The eyes are the windows/mirror of the soul" came up as the commonest.
find it to be quite true.
weren't there times when you looked someone in the eye and somehow, you'd somehow "know" the person?
that's most often the case for me.
just by that eye contact
it just tells me sumthing about that person
there's just this "feeling" that come about
i'd know whether that person can be trusted
if that person's dependable
it's quite amazing how much can be told
i guess, most of the time it would actually be the "comfort feel", if not able to put into the many words.
there's just a connection.
i'm really terrible at putting thoughts into words.
so much going on in my mind
but the mere things that i'm able to or not able to manage out.. DANG.
also the side effects of having hols! hahaha..
decreased reading, writing and thougth processing makes one dull.
hahaha.. tempting.
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a fren asked me what i'd notice first
i just realise that my answer would be: the eyes.
of cos a good first impression and general appearance would appeal
but still, it's actually down to the eyes.
to each his/her own i guess.
just googled "eye quotes"
"The eyes are the windows/mirror of the soul" came up as the commonest.
find it to be quite true.
weren't there times when you looked someone in the eye and somehow, you'd somehow "know" the person?
that's most often the case for me.
just by that eye contact
it just tells me sumthing about that person
there's just this "feeling" that come about
i'd know whether that person can be trusted
if that person's dependable
it's quite amazing how much can be told
i guess, most of the time it would actually be the "comfort feel", if not able to put into the many words.
there's just a connection.
i'm really terrible at putting thoughts into words.
so much going on in my mind
but the mere things that i'm able to or not able to manage out.. DANG.
also the side effects of having hols! hahaha..
decreased reading, writing and thougth processing makes one dull.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
just caught CSS.
first time watching, which happened to be the last of this season.
thought that Aijia should win though.
not cos she's frm my former sch
her voice is so much stronger and better than Jarod's.
dreaming a lot lately.
so surreal.
makes me wonder if sumthing really happened
or if it was just a dream.
there was this stranger who appeared. (rarely happens)
most dreams were workplace n ppl related. (don't know why)
i feel totally unrested.
an insatiable urge to recall and interpret/analyze my dreams
it's too "real" that i can confuse it with reality
often waking up and wonder if i dreamt abt sumthing that happened
or it was all just a dream
and i'd end up fearing that those dreams would come true
it has occurred before, it can again.
i just want to sleep.
deep dreamless sleep.
or at least, dream of sumthing nice?
just want to be simple.
just want to be happy.
first time watching, which happened to be the last of this season.
thought that Aijia should win though.
not cos she's frm my former sch
her voice is so much stronger and better than Jarod's.
dreaming a lot lately.
so surreal.
makes me wonder if sumthing really happened
or if it was just a dream.
there was this stranger who appeared. (rarely happens)
most dreams were workplace n ppl related. (don't know why)
i feel totally unrested.
an insatiable urge to recall and interpret/analyze my dreams
it's too "real" that i can confuse it with reality
often waking up and wonder if i dreamt abt sumthing that happened
or it was all just a dream
and i'd end up fearing that those dreams would come true
it has occurred before, it can again.
i just want to sleep.
deep dreamless sleep.
or at least, dream of sumthing nice?
just want to be simple.
just want to be happy.
i've got this insane urge to spend.
nope, haven't watched the entire of Confessions of a Shopaholic.
it's just totally random
for those who know me, i hate to shop. HA.
snowball effect? maybe.
after spending much at Expo's John Little sale.
once again, the _____ thoughts come at night.
well, talking abt it got me thinking anyway.
i was thinking what kind of life i would end up with.
okies, more like wad kinda life i would wanna end up living.
2 extreme and distinct scenerios.
1.
travelling my entire life after getting a deg
with or without a fren/bf/husband
i'd prolly be a workaholic, so travelling may be due to work
or basically just random escapades
2.
get a deg
get a job (work and save like crazy)
get married as early as possible
have as many kids as i can afford
hoping for twins among (though that would mean marrying a twin to increase the odds)
prolly end up being a stay-home mum
a nice house with a nice yard (prolly not living in singapore then)
have at dogs in the house
"retire" and travel with my husband after the kids have grown up.
would i be able to live either way?? hahahaha
i really wonder.
o wells, i can dream
can't i?
i've realised how much i love kids.
well, having many younger cousins may have fueled the emotions
but still, it's just really great to have babies and kids around
there seems to be more life and zeal
it's a special kind of sumthing.
nope, haven't watched the entire of Confessions of a Shopaholic.
it's just totally random
for those who know me, i hate to shop. HA.
snowball effect? maybe.
after spending much at Expo's John Little sale.
once again, the _____ thoughts come at night.
well, talking abt it got me thinking anyway.
i was thinking what kind of life i would end up with.
okies, more like wad kinda life i would wanna end up living.
2 extreme and distinct scenerios.
1.
travelling my entire life after getting a deg
with or without a fren/bf/husband
i'd prolly be a workaholic, so travelling may be due to work
or basically just random escapades
2.
get a deg
get a job (work and save like crazy)
get married as early as possible
have as many kids as i can afford
hoping for twins among (though that would mean marrying a twin to increase the odds)
prolly end up being a stay-home mum
a nice house with a nice yard (prolly not living in singapore then)
have at dogs in the house
"retire" and travel with my husband after the kids have grown up.
would i be able to live either way?? hahahaha
i really wonder.
o wells, i can dream
can't i?
i've realised how much i love kids.
well, having many younger cousins may have fueled the emotions
but still, it's just really great to have babies and kids around
there seems to be more life and zeal
it's a special kind of sumthing.
Friday, April 10, 2009
there's just that void.
no one else can fill it but you.
my littlest fren yet.
sorry's not the hardest word..
goodbye is.
this is why i wish i were a jellyfish
no heart
no emotions
BUT, it's a fact that i get emotionally attached very easily.
hate it most of the times.
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i'm really glad we can talk.
as in, not just abt the weather and awkward hi - byes.
really talk.. abt virtually anything at all.
i feel really blessed to have a fren in you.
it's really not easy for me to "connect"
not with most ppl my age anyway
glad and thankful. =)
no one else can fill it but you.
my littlest fren yet.
sorry's not the hardest word..
goodbye is.
this is why i wish i were a jellyfish
no heart
no emotions
BUT, it's a fact that i get emotionally attached very easily.
hate it most of the times.
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i'm really glad we can talk.
as in, not just abt the weather and awkward hi - byes.
really talk.. abt virtually anything at all.
i feel really blessed to have a fren in you.
it's really not easy for me to "connect"
not with most ppl my age anyway
glad and thankful. =)
Thursday, April 09, 2009
i'm just glad that it's possible for me to be a sponge =)
wouldn't mind being a jellyfish at times though. HA.
kudos to 633 for that!
this wk's pretty much home wk again?
half of reason is that the weather's not very gd
the other, i'm just lazy.
sticking to my CSI at home.
went out for dinner on tues.
i'll miss you my dear fren =)
yes, my routine accomplice for sundays.
so many changes, things are gonna be so so different.
attempted model photo shoot ytd at Pasir Ris Park.
i just can't seem to portray wad i visualize in my mind.
how how how.. and WHY?!?!
gd thing the weather was fine.
anyway, i always think of the most ________ stuff at nite.
When hope's present, so is disappointment.
There are dreams and then again, there's reality.
Light and shadows.
Some choose to call it Yin and Yang.
The balance in everything i guess.
That's life, ain't it?
A balance.
wouldn't mind being a jellyfish at times though. HA.
kudos to 633 for that!
this wk's pretty much home wk again?
half of reason is that the weather's not very gd
the other, i'm just lazy.
sticking to my CSI at home.
went out for dinner on tues.
i'll miss you my dear fren =)
yes, my routine accomplice for sundays.
so many changes, things are gonna be so so different.
attempted model photo shoot ytd at Pasir Ris Park.
i just can't seem to portray wad i visualize in my mind.
how how how.. and WHY?!?!
gd thing the weather was fine.
anyway, i always think of the most ________ stuff at nite.
When hope's present, so is disappointment.
There are dreams and then again, there's reality.
Light and shadows.
Some choose to call it Yin and Yang.
The balance in everything i guess.
That's life, ain't it?
A balance.
Monday, April 06, 2009
i feel just like a sponge.
absorbing and absorbing.
eventually, it'll get saturated.
in the end, it'll get really heavy.
so who's gonna squeeze me dry?
who's gonna take the weight away?
i really don't mind listening.
honestly.
it sounds oxymoronic.
but i'm not complaining here.
i really appreciate ppl sharing with me.
it shows that they trust.
i'm truely just wondering
when will i find that friend
someone i can trust wholely
someone i can share with
it's not that there arn't ppl who i can trust
it's a matter of comfort and security
it's connection.
i share with diff ppl abt diff things.
but i'm searching for that one person
one-body that fits with everything.
greedy?
maybe.
absorbing and absorbing.
eventually, it'll get saturated.
in the end, it'll get really heavy.
so who's gonna squeeze me dry?
who's gonna take the weight away?
i really don't mind listening.
honestly.
it sounds oxymoronic.
but i'm not complaining here.
i really appreciate ppl sharing with me.
it shows that they trust.
i'm truely just wondering
when will i find that friend
someone i can trust wholely
someone i can share with
it's not that there arn't ppl who i can trust
it's a matter of comfort and security
it's connection.
i share with diff ppl abt diff things.
but i'm searching for that one person
one-body that fits with everything.
greedy?
maybe.