P R O F I L E.
Amanda
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exTPS.exAHS.
TemasekPoly.BIO
Amanda
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exTPS.exAHS.
TemasekPoly.BIO
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Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Immuned.
received the email mentioning the official cancellation of the OSIP to Aussie.
don't quite know wad to make of it..
prolly disappointed that we weren't first informed before the email?
or was it that i saw the email after reading the news that countries were no longer being listed?
of cos, it doesn't quite make any sense to cancel then..
but honestly, no extreme feeling that i ought to have.
- still waiting for a reply frm HSA
- planning to go for Genomar interview to check out the proj
- BPT proj (24 July)
- TE PBL 1 & 2
- LAST tut (3rd July)
- BPT tut quiz (10th July)
skipped BPT lec today cos of stomach upset.
still feeling quite bad. =(
argh. ITAS food!
result:
- sleep deprivation
- no appetite
- low productivity
- lousy mood
i've never really had stomach upset before.. =S
好朋友，我希望我们之间的友情永不变
如果有所改变，也只是变得更好。
不知如何解释，但我就是有种强烈的感觉
你将是我的知己。
mutual? haha.. don't know!
who knows wad the future holds..
but i do want to know though.. lol
hmmm.. simply not in a very good mood
don't quite know wad to make of it..
prolly disappointed that we weren't first informed before the email?
or was it that i saw the email after reading the news that countries were no longer being listed?
of cos, it doesn't quite make any sense to cancel then..
but honestly, no extreme feeling that i ought to have.
- still waiting for a reply frm HSA
- planning to go for Genomar interview to check out the proj
- BPT proj (24 July)
- TE PBL 1 & 2
- LAST tut (3rd July)
- BPT tut quiz (10th July)
skipped BPT lec today cos of stomach upset.
still feeling quite bad. =(
argh. ITAS food!
result:
- sleep deprivation
- no appetite
- low productivity
- lousy mood
i've never really had stomach upset before.. =S
好朋友，我希望我们之间的友情永不变
如果有所改变，也只是变得更好。
不知如何解释，但我就是有种强烈的感觉
你将是我的知己。
mutual? haha.. don't know!
who knows wad the future holds..
but i do want to know though.. lol
hmmm.. simply not in a very good mood
Friday, June 26, 2009
the strength to carry on
i need.
feeling really tired.
mentally and emotionally?
just so lethargic today
even during LAST lab
没什么大事件所带来的刺激
也没什么充分的理由
所以有点讨厌自己这样子
为什么那么情绪化
为什么那么在意失去
为什么那么害怕
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是不是因为你在我心中已占了地位？
虽然只是朋友的身份
你却能让我心情烦躁
还是因为我太敏感？
是我想得太多吗？
我的直觉却告诉我另一回事。
我承认自己有时候的确想得多了一点
不过，这一次不一样。
一言难尽。
就是有种感觉，清楚地知道你心里在想什么。
我不敢问
害怕自己错了
直觉再强也有可能错
就这样算了吗？
i think you know how i feel
i believe you know me, like you said you did
there's a connection i can't explain
i know you think and feel the same way too.
gut feel?
tell me abt it.
i need.
feeling really tired.
mentally and emotionally?
just so lethargic today
even during LAST lab
没什么大事件所带来的刺激
也没什么充分的理由
所以有点讨厌自己这样子
为什么那么情绪化
为什么那么在意失去
为什么那么害怕
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是不是因为你在我心中已占了地位？
虽然只是朋友的身份
你却能让我心情烦躁
还是因为我太敏感？
是我想得太多吗？
我的直觉却告诉我另一回事。
我承认自己有时候的确想得多了一点
不过，这一次不一样。
一言难尽。
就是有种感觉，清楚地知道你心里在想什么。
我不敢问
害怕自己错了
直觉再强也有可能错
就这样算了吗？
i think you know how i feel
i believe you know me, like you said you did
there's a connection i can't explain
i know you think and feel the same way too.
gut feel?
tell me abt it.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
talked to PC abt OSIP..
he said to take it that it's cancelled. o wells..
am i immuned to disappointments alr?
or was it that i expected it after seeing his expression?
or just simply a gut feeling?
anyhow, when he said he wanted to pull out, i didn't feel anything at all.
just wished that he'd say earlier.. or at least in person instead of msn.
started on the search for local SIP just ytd.
sent out mails to the Forensics Dept of HSA..
hope to get a reply from HR!! *fingers crossed and praying really hard*
looks like i'd be ard to see the moving after all?? hahaha..
feel kinda weighted with so many things going on
not entirely overwhelmed.. but still.. =S
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i'm kinda puzzled and confused by him..
words, mannerism and reactions.. it's not exactly a good thing.
right now, i'm afraid of losing a fren.
worse still, for reasons that i don't know..
i'm afraid to ask, scared that it's just me thinking too much.
on the other hand, i don't wanna feel and see things happen but don't know the reason why.
What am i to do?
just leave it?
let me see a light.
i need a really bright light now.
he said to take it that it's cancelled. o wells..
am i immuned to disappointments alr?
or was it that i expected it after seeing his expression?
or just simply a gut feeling?
anyhow, when he said he wanted to pull out, i didn't feel anything at all.
just wished that he'd say earlier.. or at least in person instead of msn.
started on the search for local SIP just ytd.
sent out mails to the Forensics Dept of HSA..
hope to get a reply from HR!! *fingers crossed and praying really hard*
looks like i'd be ard to see the moving after all?? hahaha..
feel kinda weighted with so many things going on
not entirely overwhelmed.. but still.. =S
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i'm kinda puzzled and confused by him..
words, mannerism and reactions.. it's not exactly a good thing.
right now, i'm afraid of losing a fren.
worse still, for reasons that i don't know..
i'm afraid to ask, scared that it's just me thinking too much.
on the other hand, i don't wanna feel and see things happen but don't know the reason why.
What am i to do?
just leave it?
let me see a light.
i need a really bright light now.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
2nd day of sch after term break!
as i was snoozing my phone alarm, a flood of smses came
no TE lec! cos PC on MC..
den again, there's still that "no one knew, but it's a compulsory talk at 11am"???
i don't really like it that we can only talk much on msn
just seems weird.. yea, i know we can talk face-to-face.
but honestly, the conversation's much longer on msn.. =s
prolly cos I AM a msn person.. lol.
i'm still rather sleepy..
tis wk's gonna be ok i suppose.
working on sat n sun
as i was snoozing my phone alarm, a flood of smses came
no TE lec! cos PC on MC..
den again, there's still that "no one knew, but it's a compulsory talk at 11am"???
i don't really like it that we can only talk much on msn
just seems weird.. yea, i know we can talk face-to-face.
but honestly, the conversation's much longer on msn.. =s
prolly cos I AM a msn person.. lol.
i'm still rather sleepy..
tis wk's gonna be ok i suppose.
working on sat n sun
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
OKIES...
Mon - Sat: DL
come to think of it, this hols is really all work.
after a break on sunday, it's back to business.
no one's asked me out anyway.. lol.
guilty of slacking on BPT though =x
secretly wishing for something
desperately praying for another thing
faithfully hoping for that same thing
go figure! haha
once again, the words just won't come out.
i want some TLC!
Mon - Sat: DL
come to think of it, this hols is really all work.
after a break on sunday, it's back to business.
no one's asked me out anyway.. lol.
guilty of slacking on BPT though =x
secretly wishing for something
desperately praying for another thing
faithfully hoping for that same thing
go figure! haha
once again, the words just won't come out.
i want some TLC!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
PHEW.
lets see..
mon: DL
tues - wed: DL + LITO +GIG meeting
thurs: DL
fri - sat: LITO
ytd's LITO was !!!!!
rose and nuraini would know why..
i thought i was gonna lose my voice by today.
more progress and experiences at work on mon and tues! =)
words can't express how i feel.. lol.
lets see..
mon: DL
tues - wed: DL + LITO +GIG meeting
thurs: DL
fri - sat: LITO
ytd's LITO was !!!!!
rose and nuraini would know why..
i thought i was gonna lose my voice by today.
more progress and experiences at work on mon and tues! =)
words can't express how i feel.. lol.
should i run after work tmr?? haha
hmmm..
felt like i had a lot of things to type....
but when i'm here, just can't seem to get anything out.
Saturday, June 06, 2009
i really wanna count my blessings..
despite of all the "if onlys" and "what ifs".
so glad to be able to have contact with SL =)
stayed back after LITO to watch the entire pres.
thankful to Asnul as well, that i get to do LITO..
blessed to see Gracie swimming at night
thankful for a confidant!
though i still can't believe that i actually confessed to a common fren! hahah..
thankful that UQ has approved.
now it's only left with accommodations and visas (pray pray and pray summore)
the wk ahead's gonna be packed?
just pray that P.C don't drop the Burns Centre visit bomb on my working day. SIGH.
as for sch work, as little as i wish to think of it, it still has to be done.
left with:
-10 interview qns (by mon)
-BPT Proj
-this n thats for CSAS interview
really hope to fully utilize this 2 wks of break..
and ultimately, hope to settle OSIP ASAP.
sumtimes, i just wish he'd take the initiative.
btw, think straight. (for some i know would think the less direct way. LOL)
it's that feeling i abhor again.
the one that makes me feel like i've got a lot to handle, and a lot on my mind.
despite of all the "if onlys" and "what ifs".
so glad to be able to have contact with SL =)
stayed back after LITO to watch the entire pres.
thankful to Asnul as well, that i get to do LITO..
blessed to see Gracie swimming at night
thankful for a confidant!
though i still can't believe that i actually confessed to a common fren! hahah..
thankful that UQ has approved.
now it's only left with accommodations and visas (pray pray and pray summore)
the wk ahead's gonna be packed?
just pray that P.C don't drop the Burns Centre visit bomb on my working day. SIGH.
as for sch work, as little as i wish to think of it, it still has to be done.
left with:
-10 interview qns (by mon)
-BPT Proj
-this n thats for CSAS interview
really hope to fully utilize this 2 wks of break..
and ultimately, hope to settle OSIP ASAP.
sumtimes, i just wish he'd take the initiative.
btw, think straight. (for some i know would think the less direct way. LOL)
it's that feeling i abhor again.
the one that makes me feel like i've got a lot to handle, and a lot on my mind.
Friday, June 05, 2009
it's all over and done with for this term =)
i may have died in calculations. ah well~
i hate how i start sneezing so easily and for reasons that i dont' know.
trying to think and calculate while sneezing was rather distracting.
LITO sit in tmr
quite a lot of stuff i wanna get done...
-type n send BPT Proj things to others by tmr
-complete CSAS 10 interview qns by tmr
-get a hair cut (tmr?)
-start a proper running routine, include swimming as well
-try to drag someone along for the above
-shop for formal skirt and footwear for CSAS interview. (Damn. why is it a MUST for skirt??!)
-GET DECENT SLP.
that should be just about it?
oh yea, take more pics. hahaha..
it's time to catch up - ppl, sch work, ...
it's time to enjoy
so many things, so little time.
as always.
i may have died in calculations. ah well~
i hate how i start sneezing so easily and for reasons that i dont' know.
trying to think and calculate while sneezing was rather distracting.
LITO sit in tmr
quite a lot of stuff i wanna get done...
-type n send BPT Proj things to others by tmr
-complete CSAS 10 interview qns by tmr
-get a hair cut (tmr?)
-start a proper running routine, include swimming as well
-try to drag someone along for the above
-shop for formal skirt and footwear for CSAS interview. (Damn. why is it a MUST for skirt??!)
-GET DECENT SLP.
that should be just about it?
oh yea, take more pics. hahaha..
it's time to catch up - ppl, sch work, ...
it's time to enjoy
so many things, so little time.
as always.
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
thinking twice
thinking thrice
don't know why i'm thinking so many times
i really wish i don't think so much
it's tiring
it's frustrating
keeping it all in my mind
that already limited memory space
forced to churn even more
whether there's really much to think about
i don't even know
just get this feeling that there's a lot of stuff in there
it's to the point of saturation
if asked, i don't even know what to say
i'm not even sure.
ridiculous eh?
simply absurd.
maybe it's just all the information from studying?
yea.. prolly just nothing at all.
humans are so contradictory
why?
i'm really not sure how i feel
hmmmm
thinking thrice
don't know why i'm thinking so many times
i really wish i don't think so much
it's tiring
it's frustrating
keeping it all in my mind
that already limited memory space
forced to churn even more
whether there's really much to think about
i don't even know
just get this feeling that there's a lot of stuff in there
it's to the point of saturation
if asked, i don't even know what to say
i'm not even sure.
ridiculous eh?
simply absurd.
maybe it's just all the information from studying?
yea.. prolly just nothing at all.
humans are so contradictory
why?
i'm really not sure how i feel
hmmmm
one more paper to go.
TE was.. as some say, a nightmare. traumatising.
ah well.. it's over.
LITO on friday nite, sit in.
DL on mon, tues n thurs.
wish i could do more LITO.
earn more..
budget budget
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mind's still filled with searching for accommodations..
it's really a handful. hmm..
so it'll be the 4 of us going to UQ??
so complex! keeps changing too.. lol.
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i'd better start up a routine to train for NAPHA. =S
so out of touch, so out of breathe easily! =(
run run run.. aim to run after work den.. since i don't have last shows.
there's a lot on my mind rite now.
TE was.. as some say, a nightmare. traumatising.
ah well.. it's over.
LITO on friday nite, sit in.
DL on mon, tues n thurs.
wish i could do more LITO.
earn more..
budget budget
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mind's still filled with searching for accommodations..
it's really a handful. hmm..
so it'll be the 4 of us going to UQ??
so complex! keeps changing too.. lol.
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i'd better start up a routine to train for NAPHA. =S
so out of touch, so out of breathe easily! =(
run run run.. aim to run after work den.. since i don't have last shows.
there's a lot on my mind rite now.
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
so it's freaking my fault?
i don't know wad to make of it.
don't understand how u really think
don't quite wish to know either
i'm as pissed
having to put up
not being able to do anything
sumtimes, i really just wish.
grow up.
please.
self-control.
if even i can do it, i don't see why you can't.
and sumtimes, i wonder why.
i hate times like tis.
just having my hands tied behind my back
!#$^%&$%^#
Damn.
makes me look forward to Sep even more.
i don't know wad to make of it.
don't understand how u really think
don't quite wish to know either
i'm as pissed
having to put up
not being able to do anything
sumtimes, i really just wish.
grow up.
please.
self-control.
if even i can do it, i don't see why you can't.
and sumtimes, i wonder why.
i hate times like tis.
just having my hands tied behind my back
!#$^%&$%^#
Damn.
makes me look forward to Sep even more.